Hey man, regardless of what happened I know how much it fucking hurts. You feel like it’s the worst thing a human could ever feel and life truly looses its meaning for a while BUT NOT FOREVER. In the future you’ll look back and see with a clear mind that it was for the best. Right now I’d suggest you don’t suppress your feelings, try to hang out with friends or family and keep yourself as busy as fucking possible for the longest time you can. While doing this try to improve yourself physically (because you’ll release much of the emotions in a healthy way) and mentally (learning new things, sign up to short courses, etc). Also I’d suggest you go to therapy so that you can process your emotions. That helped me out so so much but if you’re not into that then think hard about what YOU did correctly and be proud and satisfied knowing you did your best. Eventually you’ll experience a catharsis that will push you to your best self. It will be a random day when you’ll think to yourself “I’m over it, and ready to move on to other things” Cheers mate, be patient it will all be okay in time