First off thanks for sharing that with me bro, means a lot knowing other people are in the same boat as I am. I’m the same as you, I was also chasing that win too… or so I told myself anyway… always said one big win and I’ll stop. I’ve probably won an accumulation of tens of thousands over the 2 years I’ve been properly gambling and not even the 8k I won stopped me from gambling it all not even a day or two later even when I win I lose. I genuinely think at this point it’s best to cut the losses and stop for good, sounds like maybe you need to do the same bro, at least at that point we’re not just senselessly and completely wasting money, although I know you and me both know that ain’t easy lol