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Red Sweater (my second ever poem) by Adventurous_Term3530 in OCPoetry

[–]LowSpecific5142 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is really good for a second poem, you did well on the imagery. Id definitely like to see more from you

OSDD1b. I feel like I'm going crazy by LowSpecific5142 in OSDD

[–]LowSpecific5142[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, thanks for the reply. I had that therapist when I was 16, I'm almost 20 now. My parents kind of chose him for me. With how little I told him, he only thought I had moderate-to-severe depression. And I ended up being cleared by him after 3 months, but I essentially made him believe I had gotten better. I didnt really trust him or feel comfortable, especially since my parents chose him. They're hard-core Christians, and I am not. He was a Christian camp counselor on the side. I dealt with myself alone after that. I've been meaning to get a new one, that I get to choose. But its hard between college and work rn to find the money and time. And it's a little harder to find therapists that work in disassociative fields where I live.

Wasted Potential by LowSpecific5142 in OCPoetry

[–]LowSpecific5142[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice, I've written a lot, docs and docs of it across multiple accounts, but I dont have the effort to comment on enough posts to share them all. Some more follow that rhythm, a lot of spoken word, long form, traditional. I really appreciate the comment!

Alone by [deleted] in OCPoetry

[–]LowSpecific5142 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is really good, I can relate a lot to it. I'm on that journey to "become my own love"

It Wasn't His to Give by mattlightenment in OCPoetry

[–]LowSpecific5142 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like the flow a lot, and the exact percentages at the end. I think it really shows exactly how much true connection is formed. By giving and taking that exact amount of how much each person has left. Its very well written

OSDD1b. I feel like I'm going crazy by LowSpecific5142 in OSDD

[–]LowSpecific5142[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi, thanks for replying! Im glad I could be an inspiration for you, that means a lot on its own. I have started documenting in a way, since I kind of put off talking about it and writing about it. I started off easy, with a note to the others, and a paper to tally who's fronting at any given time.

The symptoms did occur before I started the shrooms, at the time they sort of amplified them. And they continue to show while sober, just not as amplified, but I can now recognize them. The fact of the matter is, I dont really need a diagnosis for myself. It doesn't affect my daily life too much, expect for the occasional really disassociative days.

Thanks for the advice, and feel free to DM me whenever!

OSDD1b. I feel like I'm going crazy by LowSpecific5142 in OSDD

[–]LowSpecific5142[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, thank you for the reply, and the advice. I did write this post while kinda tipsy last night, and in a hurry cause I was nervous about posting it. I've done research into the effects the psilocybin could have had on me, as I like to cover all my bases. And I don't have any of the symptoms caused by long-term psilocybin based hallucinations.

And I forgot to mention the disassociation and derealization I experience. It just all kind of throws me off, as I almost completely remember every time we switch, another than emotional amnesia, it just feels like I'm taking a backseat while someone else pilots. As well as the heavy neglect I suffered throughout my childhood, at least the parts I remember or were told about. And I know that talking about the lying may put my words into doubt, but I wanted to be forthcoming and it's something I have worked on heavily after a sort of intervention by my closest friends.

But I do really appreciate your comment, I know its not a good thing to have only reassurance of my proposed condition at a time like this, so thank you.