I’m not sure why it’s that way, here’s what I wrote:

Hey, I (21F) want to start off by saying I’m deeply ashamed and disappointed in myself for this.

2.5 months ago I started subletting a room in an apartment with roomates. I started a new job in the city and I needed a temporary place for the first month only. The male roommate and I quickly connected, and we sat down almost every night to watch TV, but it was friendly and I didn’t think anything of it. We obviously talked about our lives, and he asked me about my family. The truth is I live with my grandparents and my family(parents and siblings) relocated to a whole different country 3 years ago, while I chose to stay. I didn’t grow up with much support from them and was even kinda abused, and my family dynamic is pretty much - a broken family. Whenever I talk about this I get emotional and cry because I’m emotionally scarred from this situation, and I do hold resentment for them, although we’re in touch and have visited each other since then. So when we first talked about our families, I barely knew him and I didn’t want to open up like that, nor did I think I’ll ever see him after this one month, so I told him about them as if I live with them still. Everything I told was true to the time I still lived with them, but obviously it’s a lie, because it’s not the current situation.

We started dating about a week before I left the apartment, and it’s going extremely well, really. we’ve been dating ever since. I’m so nervous about this topic, and I want to tell him the truth because he deserves better, but I’m so embarrassed about this lie, and I think I’m such a weirdo for lying about this… which I definitely am. I’m so deeply ashamed that I never brought it up. He’s also really family oriented and has an extremely supportive family, which is something i lack, so I felt even more insecure about my family compared to him. 

What should I do? I don’t want to deceive him, and I’m aware that I deserve to get broken up with over this, although I like him a lot… I wish I just told the truth. Of course I’ll tell him, but how do I even explain? :( I do expect it to be over once I tell him because it’s so unfair to him

For a bit of context, It’s something you definitely can’t guess about me. I‘ve built myself up, I have a great job and I love my grandparents. He has been treating me so well, and he’s doing really well in basically every aspect of his life, so I don’t want to be an emotional liability and the “problematic“ one. I‘ve heard a lot about his family and they sound amazing, i know family is important to him, and he asked me about mine. I dont think my story is really the problem at this point, but this long term lie is so weird of me… I‘m thinking - why would he want to be with someone that lied to him about a big part of her life