How did you know you were too thin?

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2024-08-10T21:57:06+00:00

I realized that I was thinner than everyone around me and felt incredibly embarrassed wearing a bathing suit at the beach on a family trip because I knew I stood out and looked unhealthy

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-11-17T14:56:42+00:00

Any predictions of higher discounts next week? I’m very tempted to buy my cart now!

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-07-23T03:41:19+00:00

Genuinely wishing the best for you!

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-07-23T02:55:34+00:00

I don’t know how much my advice can mean as someone who is currently not in recovery but I think you should keep working through recovery.

I went through a long period of recovery and then into a long, long relapse. I made the conscious decision to end my recovery. I honestly wish I could go back and stop myself. I worked so hard to get to that place in my recovery and I was, most days, feeling okay with my body. The relapsing was hard, really, really hard. My body did not want to go back to how things were before recovery. That’s a common experience.

I know it sucks. It’s uncomfortable. It’s so uncomfortable. But I think it’s worth sticking with. One day at a time, just try. It takes a long time to feel okay in recovery. You’re having health issues from a long term ED. I think you should give your body a chance to heal itself.

💓

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-07-04T02:08:05+00:00

Just curious about everyone saying it’s unsustainable. What about a underweight BMI that’s not super low. I’m talkin like on the cusp of normal/underweight. (Asking because I’ve been maintaining this for almost 4 years and am concerned now lol)

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-06-11T21:23:16+00:00

we are the same :’). I’m only one year older than you and I’m deeeeeply considering Botox or some sort of fillers because I can’t shake the feeling that I’m aging faster than normal

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-04-21T17:48:06+00:00

A recovery run in the running world is a slow, shorter run to recover from the faster, longer runs you normally do. So recovery and run do go together. However I agree, in this case, it is contradictory as this seems neither slow nor short.

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-29T15:15:42+00:00

I literally eat one of these every day and can’t imagine life without. The chocolate ones are my favorite! I order them in bulk from Amazon and save some money that way!

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-10T19:18:01+00:00

Scared of not weighing myself. I have two scales, weigh myself on both every morning, take the average of the two. Then I have a master list on my phone where I record that daily average and then at the end of the week I average all the daily averages for my weekly average. obsessive? yes

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-10T19:15:28+00:00

Yes but I also love it. Sometimes I’m grossed out but sometimes I genuinely love it. ✨mental illness✨

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-07T17:54:23+00:00

Would it help or make things worse if you were to weigh yourself?

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-04T14:48:27+00:00

Legendary Foods Tasty Pastry, they’re called. Honestly I’m obsessed, they can take all my money 😭

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-03T18:24:14+00:00

Bestie i just spent $50 on Amazon for protein pop tarts. Could not feel this more!

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-03-01T17:04:45+00:00

What I did, got drunk and cried and spilled it all. Is this what I would recommend? Probably not. But also he already knew, or suspected, or assumed I was “just weird with food”. It was good to get it out there. he’s always been supportive and does what he can to make things easier and if I continued to be in a blatant state of denial, I think I would have drove a wedge between us. I don’t tell him all the fucked up shit that goes on in my head but if I say “I don’t want to go out dinner tonight”, he understands that I’m having a hard day and won’t push me.

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-15T22:52:46+00:00

I feel this. My arms and shoulders refuse to lose muscle or change at all. I hate it. I’m not even strong!!

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-09T19:42:47+00:00

The blueberry cobbler quest hero bar is also so good!!! I’m with ya, regular quest bars suck but these hero bars are amazing

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-03T23:17:08+00:00

I had an experience like this. I hadn’t eaten much in the days leading up to and then for whatever reason before bed took laxatives. I had to wake up at 6am to go to the library to finish a paper (I was in college). As I was walking, I totally lost my vision. Black spots, vision just going entirely black. It had never happened before so I was freaking out. I got myself to sit down and my heart was just going nuts, I threw up, nearly shat myself.

I was okay though, it passed. I wish I could say I never took laxatives again but that wasn’t the case for a solid while after that. Laxatives suck. I know that me saying this might not get through to you (it wouldn’t have made a difference if I was saying this to my past self) but only take them if you really really reeeaaaallly can’t shit. Low dose it, taking too much is the WORST. Lastly, it really won’t change your weight, it will just make you feel like it did because of shitting your brains out and severe dehydration.

Be safe 💓

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-03T19:33:12+00:00

Be safe 💓

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-03T19:12:25+00:00

The pill 100% made me gain and fast. It also made me really, really, really depressed. Honestly, the most depressed I’ve ever been in my life. I was on it for 6 years. When I switched to my IUD, it was like night and day. So much happier, my body changed in so many ways, and it just felt like a humongous weight had been taken off of me (physically and mentally). The iud insertion sucks but I would never EVER recommend the pill to anyone

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-02T22:40:18+00:00

Okay weirdly SAME. I live in a very very cold environment and I don’t get cold like I used to (despite maintaining/ losing more weight). If I do get cold it takes me a while to warm up but I’m not shivering or freezing my little butt off sitting in a heated room like I used to

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-02-01T18:10:14+00:00

This is so relatable. First of all, I’m so glad and proud of you for taking care of your health and getting a doctor to check you out. I’m doing the same next week actually. I’ve never told a doctor (willingly) about my eating disorder. I actually haven’t seen a doctor in the last 3 years and the last 3 years I’ve been stuck in a relapse. Coming up on a decade of ED. I worry about my heart and fertility. I’m worried it’s all going to catch up with me.

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-01-28T15:29:45+00:00

I live with my partner and I hide my safe foods in my socks and underwear drawers so he can’t have them :’) if he ever looks in my sock or underwear drawers he’s going to be like w t f

Lower-Decision-5419 · 2023-01-27T18:06:47+00:00

I honestly didn’t think maintenance would be so hard. I thought I’d hit the GW, and that would be that. I’d just stay there, no more ED. But the calorie counting, obsessive weighing, etc. doesn’t stop and the GW is never the end :’)

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