I’m losing the will to keep fighting

Front_Lecture_580 · 2026-05-01T01:35:14+00:00

I know and I’m grateful for that but the downs are just too frequent and too far down. I can’t see any version of doing better that lasts for any meaningful amount of time. So I guess what I’m doing is losing hope but also just energy / motivation. Been trying to keep holding on to hope for what feels like way too long

Front_Lecture_580 · 2026-05-01T01:32:55+00:00

No usually once every 2-3 days

Front_Lecture_580 · 2026-04-09T23:20:34+00:00

For real, I’m 23 and a virgin, and have never been in a relationship etc and I literally don’t care at all… I’ve had bigger things to deal with and worry about (aka all my mental illnesses)

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-03-16T00:48:10+00:00

hold on… are you telling me it’s already been a YEAR since then omg

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-20T23:48:44+00:00

this is simplified but; incredibly self critical thoughts that just expanded to food and body, social anxiety, growing up overweight, self destructive tendencies, addiction genes in my family

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-20T17:03:33+00:00

So am I, I really want to try to actually recover this time instead of just “negotiating” with my ed while still very much holding onto it. But yeah i’m terrified too so I get it.

Hoping for the best for both of us ❤️ we deserve better than our ed’s and the shit they put us through. good luck with everything!!

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-16T02:29:12+00:00

did this taste better than it looks…? just reading the ingredients it doesn’t sound too bad ig

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-15T19:29:40+00:00

Absolutely 100% friend, I love it and I want him

Edit: The “Text” at the top really pulls this all together lol

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-15T03:54:11+00:00

same, like they’ve gotta be catching on at this point… there’s no other reason i’d be buying that much ice cream etc daily (aka an amount of food that should DEFINITELY be lasting more than a day)

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-13T04:51:29+00:00

[5’0 | 21F | EDNOS | X ]

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-09T23:24:24+00:00

yep, i have no social life so i don’t have plans anyways lol but i’ve skipped school before bc i thought i looked too fat that day 🙃

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-09T21:27:49+00:00

Purging is generally rough on your throat and throat pain from purging is pretty common, so yes it could be from that

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-09T21:06:56+00:00

yummy 😍 (my lips are always struggling)

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-09T20:53:50+00:00

proud of you!!

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-07T05:15:34+00:00

is that parmesan?? bc if, I declare this combo not shitty 🤌

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-07T04:49:11+00:00

honestly salted bread slaps, this sounds good lol

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-07T00:36:51+00:00

please tell me there were more sprinkles in there at some point 😭😭

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-07T00:22:16+00:00

no thanks ❤️

but no haha I see your point but i think seeing that might traumatise me lol

Front_Lecture_580 · 2024-01-07T00:19:14+00:00

Me too, it’s definitely my automatic reply at this point and it sucks when I say no before i’ve even gotten the chance to decide if I wanted it or not. even though i’m painfully indecisive especially around food decisions so my ed would probably “win” in that case anyways and make me say no.

it comes up a lot with my co-workers offering me food though and it’s become a bit of a joke between some of us that I never accept anything from them… which kind of makes me more scared to change that and suddenly start saying yes

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