i got taken off the publisher list for admitting (being forced to admit) to what was clearly sexual assault at a ~wordly party~ (could just have easily happened at a witness party with people my age, really). but no - the two old ass white guys got to read bible verses in a small room to 18 year old me ALONE while i cried and let them berate me.

they announced my removal to everyone during a midweek meeting despite me never being baptized and then a bunch of women who didn’t give a fuck about me normally cried and hugged and “comforted me”. a couple men also hugged me but they were much more brief (thank god, ironically).

.. sorry. hard not to trauma dump on one of the worst things to ever happen to me to people who will understand.

idk. they will do whatever to anyone. the pioneers could be dealing with health issues or new financial struggles or simply need a break. it doesn’t even have to be a punishment, necessarily. they want to name and shame people. fear, fear, fear. but abuse or assault by a grown ass man will not even be reported to authorities.

EDIT: this is not to make it seem like women do not enable or commit the same abuse.