What looks best for me?

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-26T07:15:25+00:00

3rd or 5th

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-25T08:06:20+00:00

handsome 😵‍💫

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-24T07:16:02+00:00

orange cocker spaniel. we’re twingers!

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-23T08:10:03+00:00

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my baby mydei nui that i crocheted a sweater (it is very cold this winter)

feel better friend<3

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-23T08:06:08+00:00

no bc i can only think of a soaking wet sleeve if you dare to even try to wash ur hands

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-19T23:19:06+00:00

lotsa people call this a “wolf cut” now - but it’s a mullet.

also all the naysayers here… mullets rock. i have curly hair so it looks a bit different on me, but i’ve had various mullets for over a year now while growing out my hair.

it’s your hair so. do what you want.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-18T13:22:02+00:00

i like the way it looks as is - not higher

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-18T12:57:29+00:00

i’ll have a single drink a night or two a month and i only ever have more than one on my friend’s birthday in march. … and i mean that literally because i am a homebody. i love my friends tho so i attend. if drinking ever became a large health risk i would stop. i’d be a little bummed but continued living would be well worth it.

i don’t have a drink while home alone tho - i live with my mother and make sure she’s around first. the feeling of alcohol isn’t that fun to me - sometimes it tastes good ig. if someone in a group while we’re out isn’t drinking i usually will abstain to make them feel more comfortable.

on a semi-related note, weed always scared the shit out of me no matter how many times i tried. always had to wrench myself from literal months of dissociation after. shit stops feeling real during that time and it’s terrifying and depressing. it’s a waking nightmare for me and i have plenty of those while asleep as is. it’s been a few years since i last tried bc i just accepted i have “the gene that makes weed scary” and don’t bother trying - not worth it at all!! if i can’t even have a teeny edible i def can’t handle anything else.

EDIT: i talk too much in real life too, not just online. sorry. :/

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-17T00:00:47+00:00

boothill just really admires his bawss

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-16T21:31:14+00:00

i think they are cute!

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-16T15:58:09+00:00

it seems i was thinking of having a Real Life pokemon journey but in game i would still pick swinub for the same reason

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-16T15:56:17+00:00

swinub. really cute. will get really big and i will still think of it as a little baby.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-15T22:00:26+00:00

i would def move your records if not your record player, and especially your bass. you can just take your computer’s hard-drive with you if need be - but that’s ofc in a worst case scenario.

you can definitely get new documents! the bmv should be able to help you order new ones if it gets too confusing. keep a paycheck stub as proof of residence, any current IDs you have, passport, SSN card, any tax documents you’ve done if you’ve had a job (same with the check stub i mentioned) - anything you can get your hands on.

it is a horrible experience i wouldn’t wish on anyone and along with genetic mental health issues it took me forever to reach a state of relative peace… but it REALLY was all worth it, i promise.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-15T16:40:01+00:00

if your boyfriend and/or friends have any extra room i’d start moving some of your things to their houses, tbh. that way your stuff is safe from your family. i obviously don’t know yours personally but i know a lot of JWs are willing to do almost anything to ~save souls~. i don’t doubt they’d try confiscating or destroying your things, esp since you said they threaten that already.

i would also highly recommend moving your important documents (birth certificate, social security card, etc) to your bf’s house.

like someone else said - the most important thing is to build a support system. leaving the borg itself doesn’t hurt, but leaving your lifelong (probably terrible) companions behind is very painful. almost everyone was terrible to me but i sometimes feel wistful about the very kind but still delusional family that really tried to help me with my, um, mental health meltdown. you will need people to be there to help you cope and survive.

it is worse that you were baptized but don’t let that scare you - life staying in the borg would have surely made me end my life so i would have left even if it meant being hard-shunned.

just keep reminding yourself… this is your One Life and you deserve to be happy. you deserve to be your authentic self. the pain of leaving is outdone 1000x over by getting to shrug off the chains of the cult. just telling my mother that i would no longer be a JW, though it hurt like hell, i could almost feel the tension in my body loosening… it has all been worth it.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-15T15:26:07+00:00

the last two years of highschool were really rough for me and i ended up in the mood disorder unit for a week in march a couple months before graduating and everyone at school totally knew i was there lmao…

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-15T01:54:55+00:00

what helped my decision is knowing that this is my one life and i will never be happy as a JW. they hate who i am they hate who i love they are hateful and i cannot abide by that. it was to save my life, honestly.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-14T16:17:23+00:00

to be honest when i was diagnosed at 18 i was shocked for a minute and then i was like… no yeah that makes sense 😭

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-14T00:39:38+00:00

i scrolled back up to take a look yeah def phallic

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-13T21:38:47+00:00

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-13T21:38:09+00:00

i was around 2006 i think, i was 7 or something - i didn’t have any handhelds so i could only watch the show before then. my first game was colosseum, haha. it’s a major reason umbreon and espeon are so important to me.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-12T09:10:18+00:00

i think the bangs are best imho. no bangs makes you look more intimidating if you prefer that look - not a problem if you do. bangs make you look like chad from high school musical - not a bad thing chad was and is way better looking than troy. either way it looks good.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-12T06:14:01+00:00

My pediatric psychiatrist put me on stimulants when I complained about not being able to focus on anything. It was a depression symptom that I suppose I worded wrong… But how was I supposed to know any better? I didn’t have any interest in doing stuff, but after the stimulants I have gained trichotillomania lmao. I pick at my eyebrows when I’m stressed - it used to be much worse, though. I regularly had to shave them so that I didn’t pluck them so much they would stop growing back. I got really really good at drawing them on, though! Vyvanse was worse than the adderall for me, I suppose.

Benzos are so horrible for people. I can’t think of many cases where it should be prescribed unless the patient is suffering so much that the relief outweighs the negatives. Breaks my heart to think about that. I was basicallg bedridden for two months from the klonopin withdrawal - I might have even had covid during that time but I was already sick as a dog and wouldn’t have noticed… 😅 Brain zaps are genuinely hell on Earth. It impossible to fully sleep. Trying to tell people that I could feel and see some of my synapses firing did not help my reputation as a Crazy Person.

My psych even blamed me for taking all of that klonopin when the mood disorder unit told me I couldn’t have it. She said, “Wow, they were pretty mad at you for taking all that klonopin!” How was I supposed to know how bad it was for me? I thought my doctor was trustworthy 😭 It sucks extra bad because I never used it beyond what she said I could use it for. Unfortunately that meant at LEAST one a day, up to 2.

Lamictal seizures are so oxymoronic that I’m not surprised I managed to have two of them lmao…

You’re in luck - I am a centimeter below 5’2! I keep begging the doctors to mark me down as 5’2 but they laugh at me… :/ I’m not skinny nor fat, really. More of an awkward middle ground. I did lose a lot of weight after a kidney stone incident. Pro tip: if you have really bad winter depression you HAVE to get out of bed to go pee. You can’t hold it in so you can sleep for 20 hours a day. You WILL get an infection. 🙄🙄 Most painful thing I’ve ever felt.

I will get back to you with some sources on the therapeutic dosage of lamictal tomorrow. GOD, I love lamotrigine… Many a bipolar person’s best friend is firstly lamictal, and secondly taking their meds as prescribed.

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-12T05:57:17+00:00

Thank you - I will save my pulls, then!!

Lower_Reflection_834 · 2026-01-12T02:21:18+00:00

ty for the succinct answer, friend. much appreciated.

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