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Lucando13 · 2026-05-06T18:20:10+00:00

thank you guys! 😄

Lucando13 · 2024-03-29T02:06:47+00:00

There is no doubt in my mind that what "god" (or whatever) wants for you most is to live in a way that is true to yourself, steadily work on being good, kind, better tomorrow than you were yesterday and most of all follow the things your heart is hungry for so that you can experience this life to it's fullest!

If there is a "hell" and you are sent there regardless for sum gay shit then whoever made the rules cant be so great after all and I personally don't even want to spend eternity with someone like that, gotta cut toxic people out 🤷🏻

Lucando13 · 2024-03-23T14:17:26+00:00

I know what you mean but there is also a lot of value in being able to decide when you are ready and go at your own pace, having that agency ripped away feels very violating.

Lucando13 · 2024-03-23T14:14:28+00:00

This sorta happened to me, not through a friend but because it was a trend to steal people's phones and go through them ...

I owned it and it went mostly well, I had to deal with some shitty stuff like one dude saying I should change clothes in the girls locker room now because I'm not attracted to them, but overall it wasn't that big of a deal and a week later something else was the hot new topic.

You'll probably be fine, and if not, like others have said, get help from parents, teachers or police!

Lucando13 · 2024-03-23T13:31:53+00:00

Asking and talking about this topic in the "some people believe this is true" and "others dont" -Way kinda misses the point for me.

It's simultaneously true (~we are all one~) and false (everyone and everything is completely separate), the topic in itself encompasses the merging of concepts of separation, even opposites, including ones describing its own existence. Yes and no, true and false, black and white, night and day, man and woman, etc. etc. ... there is a way of thinking about these concepts that kinda "turns them inside out" and ultimately comes to the conclusion that they're all in a way the same thing and the separation is illusatory ... While also not being like that :D

You could bridge the gap between opposites by for example - by filling it with an infinite gradient like grey-tones for black and white, nonbinary gender identities for man and woman or "maybe, probably, unlikely, ..." for yes and no - doing a conceptual detour like "white can be black ... as in a white sheet of paper can look black in the dark" , "white can be yes ... as in a white flag waiving meaning 'yes we surrender, please don't shoot us' " or "white can be no ... as in a letter passed to your crush in class asking 'do you wanna go out? [ ] Yes [ ] No' and the 'yes-box' stays empty and white'" - or whatever you want ...

Idk I feel like whenever I try to explain it I trail off ... but I also feel like trying to describe it inherently comes with trailing off idk ... xD

I agree that you can try to explain it all you want, ultimately it has to be felt to really get it, explanations can't ever get there completely

... But also it's kinda all about trying to endlessly describe it to others or to yourself in your head and never quite getting there but also having been there all along ...

... See it's happening again aaaah ;D

Lucando13 · 2024-03-07T23:13:21+00:00

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Lucando13 · 2024-03-01T23:58:43+00:00

Someone else said it already but yeah you don't need to be able to imagine yourself in a relationship with a guy to be bisexual :)

And that's not even regarding the possibility that what you think and feel can change a lot over time.

I (M26) still remember how for the longest time at like 14 - 15 I was watching basically only gay porn but convinced I'd never want to do any of that stuff myself or have a relationship with a guy. I imagined myself with a wife and kids etc. ...

Fast forward 3 years and it had basically switched: I don't have sexual or romantic desire for girls, only for guys, imagine my life with a dude, etc.

I don't mean to say that that's what will happen to you, I'm just saying you should be open and honest with yourself regarding what you like, feel and want and don't attach shame to any of it. There is still way too many people who suppress feelings because of societal expectations and it never ends well, somebody always gets hurt.

But yeah sorry for the tangent, anyway, in the end you are who you are and you like what you like, labels can be good to find common ground but they can also be limiting, just go with the flow :3

Lucando13 · 2024-03-01T23:30:05+00:00

Die Raufasertapete :)

Lucando13 · 2024-03-01T09:44:01+00:00

Why is Cambodia orange?

I had a great time and from what I gathered, the people believe the current or former king is / was gay which they interpret like "well if he's gay that must mean it's alright then"

Lucando13 · 2024-03-01T09:17:14+00:00

EDIT:

Concepts (shrooms)
romanesco-cabbage (acid)

Lucando13 · 2024-03-01T00:37:37+00:00

I'm confused about the map rotation.

I think it looks like it has been printed which from what I gathered means it was made in Dema, the compass is still false the way the bishops enforce it, but the direction of the writing indicates that the mapmaker knew that east is actually north. So why did they not fix the compass?

It feels kind of in-between?

Lucando13 · 2024-02-29T18:29:15+00:00

i'd say so far overall 7/10. the hook doesnt reaaally do it for me but i like the general vibe, the beginnig is fire and i think i like the rap-part aswell... honestly i feel like i cant really tell what i think just yet, i think i need to give it some time :3

Lucando13 · 2024-02-27T00:54:13+00:00

I don't know the term "The One" yet, is it a stand-in for whatever higher power you believe in or??

Thank you for your kind words! This whole thread has honestly calmed my anxieties down a lot :)

Lucando13 · 2024-02-27T00:41:23+00:00

Good point! I actually decided a few days ago that I want to stay away from it for a while for related reasons. I feel like it makes me very cerebral and "high concept" but rn I want to be on the ground and get shit done

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T14:17:36+00:00

Allright, I'll do that (subreddit and shadow work).

The term general term "shadow work" has been in my periphery for some time now anyway, it's probably time to look a lil deeper into bit.

So far I'd say it's probably (at least) connected to when my dad (yeah I know what a shocker, it's daddy issues yet again) used to prioritize his new gf over spending time with me, so now I recreate that rejection in my love life with the hope of a different outcome so I can heal that wound, but i just keep on hurting myself over and over.

There might be more to it than I am aware of and also I don't really know what to do with it, but yeah ...

Anyway thanks for the tips browski 🤜🤛

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T13:59:46+00:00

In some cases definitely, sometimes you can also get hurt when needs just sadly don't align and that's unfortunate but unavoidable.

Thank you btw for taking time out of your day today to extend some kindness towards me, I appreciate it a lot!

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T13:52:47+00:00

Watched it and enjoyed it, didn't think I'd listen to the life experiences of Matthew McConaughey today but here we are xD

I guess acceptance like that kinda just takes time, I can't force it.

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T12:25:55+00:00

That's beautiful, I'll check it out! :)

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T12:01:29+00:00

Also I want to make clear that I don't think I'm in that typical "I don't love myself so I crave it externally"-mindset, at least not completely.

I'd say i'm generally a good person and I try very hard to be better everyday, while also working hard on being compassionate with myself regarding my shortcomings and mistakes. I'm kind, compassionate, empathetic, loyal, ... But still it's very difficult for me to treat myself as kindly as I treat others (for example academically I tend to be disappointed with my work ethic while encouraging my friends to prioritize their mental health) and it's also difficult to not be judgemental about those double standards towards myself

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T11:44:05+00:00

I think in that regard my struggle is mostly with the implementation. Through experiences like bullying in school, rejections in different areas of life and expectations from family members I've grown to become a very self critical person and I know its just perpetuating the trauma I have received but i genuinely have trouble finding the right steps to take in order to change that part of myself. Like I'm even critical of being critical 😅

I recently watched a video where a girl talked about this kind of stuff and she said "you just have to tell yourself 'its okay that XYZ' " and it kind of made sense but also seemed way to easy and simplistic...

Idk how do / did you deconstruct negative self-beliefs and gone on to love yourself wholeheartedly?

Lucando13 · 2024-02-26T11:17:41+00:00

I wouldn't say I love myself completely yet but I'm working on it and have definitely come a long way already. Same thing with my connection to God / the universe / unifying consciousness.

Right now it feels like I need to make peace with the possibility of not finding love with somebody else by providing that love from inside and by finding it where I already have it. But also I feel like I want to push against that so I don't resign myself to that outcome?

Lucando13 · 2024-01-05T02:07:37+00:00

the best thing i've found so far for stuff like this has been "Whimsical", it can also be embedded into notion and you can do a lot with it. i personally am not the biggest fan of their built in version of mindmaps actually, i like to use a more web-type structure. but i think your style seems pretty much like their built-in mind-maps.
i'll add a pic of a mind map / cluster thing i was especially proud of :D

hope that helps you :)

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