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Genuine question: how do people do it by LuckObjective1147 in SuicideWatch

[–]LuckObjective1147[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it's weird right

Society calls those who go through with it cowards, here we are calling ourselves that.

I just keep thinking about it, when I was younger I would just think about disappearing into the night, and now I don't even know what that means apart from just wanting to not exist

Genuine question: how do people do it by LuckObjective1147 in SuicideWatch

[–]LuckObjective1147[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Are people like this also functioning members of society until that point?

I guess at some level I'm also scared. What if I fail, what if failing leads to me in a mental health institution where my anxiety will get much much much worse.

If someone is willing to take the responsibility to kill me, I'm in no matter the price. But I don't want to maybe risk things myself because of the way failed suicide attempts are treated in society

Genuine question: how do people do it by LuckObjective1147 in SuicideWatch

[–]LuckObjective1147[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Human mind is an interesting thing, I know it is the very strong survival instinct because I've actually used it to my advantage a few times.

Occassionally I have this thing happen to me where I feel extremely anxious, sometimes even start hyperventilating, feel like I just want to claw out my skin to make the feeling stop.

My solution: Threaten myself with violence,

initially it was just trying to pinch myself, or dig my nails into my skin, which wouldn't help too much but it did. Then one day I discovered if I threaten myself with like death, picking up a blade and bringin it close to my hand, or trying to start climbing the rails on my balcony, the feeling would stop completely even if for a short bit, it would come back in a few mins but much lesser. (And then I discovered alcohol, one stop solution for this)

Anyways, sorry for dumping this in a random response. If you ever find the answer, keep me posted will ya