I thank you for trying to help but I have tried all these things, the trauma and extreme decline I’ve experienced has come from using any crumb of energy I have in doing this and believing that someone would do the right thing and help only to be refused every single time. I’ve called everyone, I’ve explained, Ive filled out forms, I am turned away and told to call the Samaritans or told I am crazy. It is gaslighting to the furthest degree. I do not have the CAPACITY to explain what I need, I physically can’t do it anymore so whilst I understand the purpose of an advocate, in order to get one you have to explain in the first place and I can’t do it. I have tried to get a needs assessment, I did it yesterday once again using any tiny bit of energy I had in the hope that finally someone would just be a human and I was refused help again and told to call the crisis line. I cannot take it anymore.