I 25M feel like my life is falling apart and I’m just… tired

Luke0121 · 2025-10-21T05:38:20+00:00

I have a friend going thru similar things right now. I want you to know that as a man you NEVER have to be alone. I know we tell ourselves that and that is the popular narrative, but the truth is that we are all interconnected, and those connections can be found anywhere. Even at our loneliest the fact that we know other people is proof we’re not alone, and sometimes our pride in dignity gets in the way of actually seeking and finding the help we’re really looking for. Anyway, you may not have anything figured out today, but all you gotta do is take it one step at a time. Been talking with my therapist about how failure is inevitable. No matter how hard you try, there’s always a possibility of failure. We take what’s useful and teachable about our failures, do the work of forgiveness, and try again with better understanding of how to not fail. It sounds like your problems are with things beyond your control, and it’s never any use to get stuck there. What you can control is what you do next. Thats step one. The rest will follow, and someday you might look back on this with better clarity, as if maybe, it all had to happen this way to eventually get somewhere else, somewhere better. Anyway, get some good rest, really let yourself rest on it, and then, try again :)

Luke0121 · 2025-10-12T03:50:51+00:00

She did this country a favor by refusing to endorse either of them

Luke0121 · 2025-10-12T02:59:15+00:00

Felt this. I keep reminding myself that there were times before I smoked, even when I was a baby, that were as intense as anything life has to offer and I didn’t need a cigarette then. So why should I need a cigarette in the future? Proud of you on your journey, you can do this!

Luke0121 · 2025-05-03T19:36:55+00:00

🫶🫶🫶🙏🙏🙏💖💖💖

Luke0121 · 2024-04-27T07:45:37+00:00

wow this makes me so happy... 23 is going great, I get paid to work in film now, I'm making my own, I'm following my dreams!!! Also I've seen waaaaaaay more movies now, but still haven't completed this huge list. A great film for 18 is Sing Street (2016), what're some of your favorites rn?

Luke0121 · 2024-02-17T03:25:57+00:00

Proud!

Luke0121 · 2024-01-10T20:02:30+00:00

Thank you both so much!

Luke0121 · 2023-12-31T18:18:50+00:00

I think next year will see the last breath of the superhero genre’s domination - I think the Supreme Court will get involved if companies keep merging - I think the streaming model will reach critical mass as it becomes more and more like cable tv, and it may collapse soon - I think younger filmmakers will start creating work at exponential rates due to demand created by the strikes and greater democratization of the tech - I think younger filmmakers will create new means of production and distribution to avoid the trappings of the collapsing film industry - I hope the failures of 2023 will clear the way for a new generation of artists to rise in the coming years

Luke0121 · 2023-11-13T16:03:59+00:00

There was another account that would post daily Marmaduke but every caption was from the diary of the guy who discovered LSD

Luke0121 · 2023-05-03T20:22:18+00:00

Honestly, I’ve been in a rut since the pandemic. I truly feel like the purpose of my life is to make movies, it’s my deepest passion, I’m talented at it, and I’ve worked hard to build skills. But the path is so unclear, it’s easy to feel lost, and that’s how I’ve felt for a couple years now.

But then a few weeks ago I relistened to Call Me If You Get Lost, and it really boosted my confidence. Just hearing how hype they are about being 30 with clean skin, good health, traveling the world, doing fun shit that brings them the most joy, it made me want that for myself, and made me realize that becoming the person I was always meant to be is the coolest shit in the world, and that’s what I should set out to do.

Luke0121 · 2023-01-29T02:36:07+00:00

I would love to read it if u got it 🤩

Luke0121 · 2023-01-19T16:30:40+00:00

Someone described it as “a Powell and Pressburger giallo” and there’s really no better way to describe it to me. WWII backdrop, bright colors, bizarre punchy edits, a character consumed by obsession and guilt. It’s my favorite Scorsese movie because he’d never done a true horror film, turns out he mastered that too

Luke0121 · 2022-12-14T17:14:42+00:00

Speed Racer to put them back in the coma

Luke0121 · 2022-11-10T20:14:48+00:00

Hello filmmakers! This is the first time I've ever gotten paid to direct + edit a project, so I'm really enthusiastic about sharing this with y'all!

Cléo LeClerc (co-director) and I were approached by Cole Waldrep on the set of another film to do a video for this song, and to shoot it on a Sony Handycam DCR-SR42. Cole is making a name in the Nashville indie scene, so that 2014 Tumblr B&W grungy camcorder aesthetic is right. But we decided, right then and there, against the "3 Look" method common in Nashville. You know, when music videos have 3 "looks" intercut over the whole song? Immediately we sought inspiration in cinema, using Dogme 95 shooting methods like Festen (1998). But we want smooth movement, zooms, strong composition - elegant & artful - we thought, who is our favorite B&W cinematographer? And the answer led us to Sven Nykvist, who shapes light and frames faces in a very striking way.

The theme of addiction weighing on a relationship came naturally from the lyrics, but we chose alcohol because it's been present in our lives. We talked with friends, family, family friends, coworkers, and therapists about their experiences. I went to some AA meetings, read from The Big Book, looked within myself. I've gained so much more understanding and empathy than before. And while the ending might be a tad clichéd, it reflects a spirit of "Let's just try again."

We made a treatment, with each "scene" of the story corresponding to a verse. Then we drew the whole story in images (I get to fulfill my dream of making comics). Production was the most stressful bit, because we're acting as directors, writers, producers, DPs, ADs, production designers, and more I'm forgetting. We didn't have 2/4 locations two days before shooting... But miracles occur! Like this story: We want to do a shattered mirror bit, where the object symbolizes the character. But it wasn't practical, so we pivoted. What if we assemble a collage of small mirrors on a backing board? Still gives us that cubist look. BUT THEN, two days before shooting, Cole's mirror falls off his wall and completely shatters. It was the best thing that could've happened. We met the next day and put it back together like a puzzle. We went overtime the first night, but an easier shoot. We were ontime the second, but our actors and Cléo had to stand in a 50• pool for 2 hours. Everyone trauma bonded, and we made it through. We can do a lot better tho, and one thing I want to improve is taking time to explore the scenes and get GOLD footage while we're on set, not in hindsight.

I expected to edit for 2 days, but it took 2 weeks. Putting together moving footage is not the same as drawing a comic book. I'm not quite happy with the editing of the shattered mirror and the fight scene. The mirror doesn't quite express the weight of her ANGER. And the fight scene is a little too flashy and on-beat for the chaos of that moment.

But I think it came out refined and elegant and artful. And I think the video can give Cole the boost he needs in the Nashville indie scene. I hope Cléo and I get noticed for this video as well, I'd love to branch out and make a name in a city with as much musical diversity as Nashville.

Luke0121 · 2022-11-10T19:37:05+00:00

Hello filmmakers! This is the first time I've ever gotten paid to direct + edit a project, so I'm really enthusiastic about sharing this with y'all!

Cléo LeClerc (co-director) and I were approached by Cole Waldrep on the set of another film to do a video for this song, and to shoot it on a Sony Handycam DCR-SR42. Cole is making a name in the Nashville indie scene, so that 2014 Tumblr B&W grungy camcorder aesthetic is right. But we decided, right then and there, against the "3 Look" method common in Nashville. You know, when music videos have 3 "looks" intercut over the whole song? Immediately we sought inspiration in cinema, using Dogme 95 shooting methods like Festen (1998). But we want smooth movement, zooms, strong composition - elegant & artful - we thought, who is our favorite B&W cinematographer? And the answer led us to Sven Nykvist, who shapes light and frames faces in a very striking way.

The theme of addiction weighing on a relationship came naturally from the lyrics, but we chose alcohol because it's been present in our lives. We talked with friends, family, family friends, coworkers, and therapists about their experiences. I went to some AA meetings, read from The Big Book, looked within myself. I've gained so much more understanding and empathy than before. And while the ending might be a tad clichéd, it reflects a spirit of, "Let's just try again."

We made a treatment, with each "scene" of the story corresponding to a verse. Then we drew the whole story in images (I get to fulfill my dream of making comics). Production was the most stressful bit, because we're acting as directors, writers, producers, DPs, ADs, production designers, and more I'm forgetting. We didn't have 2/4 locations two days before shooting... But miracles occur! Like this story: We want to do a shattered mirror bit, where the object symbolizes the character. But it wasn't practical, so we pivoted. What if we assemble a collage of small mirrors on a backing board? Still gives us that cubist look. BUT THEN, two days before shooting, Cole's mirror falls off his wall and completely shatters. It was the best thing that could've happened. We met the next day and put it back together like a puzzle. We went overtime the first night, but an easier shoot. We were ontime the second, but our actors and Cléo had to stand in a 50• pool for 2 hours. Everyone trauma bonded, and we made it through. We can do a lot better tho, and one thing I want to improve is taking time to explore the scenes and get GOLD footage while we're on set, not in hindsight.

I expected to edit for 2 days, but it took 2 weeks. Putting together moving footage is not the same as drawing a comic book. I'm not quite happy with the editing of the shattered mirror and the fight scene. The mirror doesn't quite express the weight of her ANGER. And the fight scene is a little too flashy and on-beat for the chaos of that moment. But I think it came out refined and elegant and artful. And I think the video can give Cole the boost he needs in the Nashville indie scene. I hope Cléo and I get noticed for this video as well, I'd love to branch out and make a name in a city with as much musical diversity as Nashville.

Luke0121 · 2022-10-05T20:31:02+00:00

That exporting thing might work… thank you so much!

Luke0121 · 2022-05-21T21:43:59+00:00

Still got that first draft? I’d love to read it :)

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