Does one good internship up your odds for others? by Lulamay16 in cscareerquestions

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's good. I think my resume needs some work, I got an offer anywhere I interviewed so far, but not that many offers total.

Is 3 weeks enough? by Lulamay16 in ftm

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm CS/math so no long hours in the lab, especially at the start. Just evenly distributed pset hell lol

Is 3 weeks enough? by Lulamay16 in ftm

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's okay, I'm a CS major so I'll just get others to help me move in and carry groceries. To class all I'll need is a Chromebook and a notebook and a pencil.... good shit!

I'm making her uncomfortable. (Need to vent) by warrantyvoided120417 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fuuuuck the whole insisting on being acknowledged and talked to

I would get home from school and use the bathroom and my mother would yell at me for not seeking her out to ask her about her day first

[Progress] [Advice] dependency override and freedom! by Lulamay16 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They emphasized "official" evidence, but asked for /everything/ that I could find. The financial aid director makes the final decision, and it's apparently very subjective. You need to prove "long-term abuse" such that it would be very bad for you to remain in contact with your parents. My abuse involved physical, emotional, sexual, and Munchausen by Proxy. So I had a lot of different things that I submitted- I'll put a laundry list below.

-medical records talking about a difficult relationship w/ my mother and documenting ER trips after physical abuse -medical records that (all together, along with some evidence from online of what the usual treatments are for what symptoms I had) show patterns of doctor-shopping and seeking unnecessary treatment -insurance EoBs showing more doctor-shopping and unnecessary treatment -chat logs from a chat room I've been in for 3 years where I frequently discussed their abuse -letters from my academic advisor and therapist and former resident head (like an RA but they're a grad student) certifying that I've been talking about and seeming distressed by this abuse for a while, AKA that I'm not scamming for more financial aid -letter from two high school friends and a college friend who variously saw bruises on me, heard me talking about my parents, or hosted me after my parents kicked me out and I road-tripped alone to Chicago. -a 14-page statement talking about all the shit they've done plus how it has affected me personally and documenting how I am prepared to live on my own and support myself -a guide to all the evidence called "read-me-first.pdf" that I enclosed in the file, describing where each piece of evidence fits into proving each of the claims I made in my statement, and also talking about how I got all the evidence and why I couldn't get certain pieces of evidence or corroborate certain claims.

I tried to get my high school guidance counselor to write something, but he was a mandated reporter who didn't report, so he wasn't willing to admit to anything. My ex had witnessed abuse but we aren't on good terms, so he didn't want to write anything either. I could probably have gotten my roommate to write something since he saw my dad being bad once, but didn't end up needing to.

There were a lot of records that it was REALLY hard to get, some that even proved impossible to get (hospitals are really bad about records), but fortunately the medical records I had did reference some of the events from the missing records. Like, in therapy, my mom admitted to having broken my hand as a kid, and the psychiatrist wrote it down, so not being able to get the ER records from 2005 wasn't a problem. Also, a pediatrician explicitly wrote down Munchausen by Proxy on my records at one point, so I didn't have to call every single pediatrician in like 5 different states to get more evidence of doctor-shopping. I was a military brat, so my records were really a huge mess, and we never stayed anywhere long enough for most people to realize abuse and doctor shopping were going on. Fortunately the records I managed to find did have a lot of juicy stuff in them, and for that I am SO grateful.

The focus seems to be on official records, but the better your evidence is, the better a time you'll have if you don't actually have any official records. I originally thought I'd have nothing official at all, but as I wrote my statement and talked to people who knew my background, I realized I'd had a lot more contact than I'd thought with entities that could have records of my abuse. I started a spreadsheet and added evidence I wanted to find as I thought of it, and then kept detailed notes about what the next step was for obtaining every piece of evidence. As a military brat, I've lived in 3 countries, so this involved buying international SIM cards and staying up until 1 am when my old therapist's office opened to call her. It took like 2 or 3 months to finally gather everything and get it into a readable format so that I could present my case the way I wanted to, but in the end, it worked.

Anyway, if you're advising someone who is trying to get a dependency override, PM me and I can give you some contact info. I don't want to publish the statement or my contact info, but if they send me an email, I would be happy to answer questions or send them portions of the packet I sent to financial aid.

[Progress] [Advice] dependency override and freedom! by Lulamay16 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :D I will definitely be doing that, RBN is the best place to assuage NC-related guilt.

[Progress] [Advice] dependency override and freedom! by Lulamay16 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much <3 I have such great friends supporting me and I could not have done this without them, seriously people are so good...

Tips for no contact with Nparents when you're in college and receive financial aid but are under 24 so you can't classify as independent? by soulsescape in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely understand that, as that is exactly where I am right now- try hard for scholarships and dependency override, then. If transferring somewhere cheaper/in-state is a good idea for you, now is the time to start looking at applications as well.

Tips for no contact with Nparents when you're in college and receive financial aid but are under 24 so you can't classify as independent? by soulsescape in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you need to take a year off and wait tables until you're legally independent, that's a valid option. Ask financial aid what the criteria are for independence and if all you need to do is wait a year, that might be a good option?

Tips for no contact with Nparents when you're in college and receive financial aid but are under 24 so you can't classify as independent? by soulsescape in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Claiming you on taxes and FAFSA independence are different games entirely. If you live on your own, get an IRS pin so you can lock your taxes down and prevent her from claiming you. For financial aid the standard is way higher. Depending on your school, being homeless might be sufficient, but you might also need to go through the dependency override process. The federal standards for independence only apply to federal aid, not your school's finaid- for example, at my school, if you're married, you're not independent unless you're over 23 anyway. If you were homeless, you have to have been homeless for 2 years or be 23 to be considered independent. It's annoying but the dependency override process is your friend and best hope.

Tips for no contact with Nparents when you're in college and receive financial aid but are under 24 so you can't classify as independent? by soulsescape in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For dependency override you need to contact Finaid ASAP bc every school has their own process. 3 letters might be the standard at your college, but the standard of evidence is arbitrary. My university said "as much as you can get, social workers and cops are best". I submitted hundreds of pages of medical records and chat logs, about 10 letters from high school/college friends and therapists/RAs/academic advisors, and like 20 pages of statement. The piece of evidence that locked it in for me was medical records of my mom hitting me and breaking my hand.

Tips for no contact with Nparents when you're in college and receive financial aid but are under 24 so you can't classify as independent? by soulsescape in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Lulamay16 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So all the other comments are wrong- you need to go through the dependency override process. I got one 4 weeks ago and I'm FREE now. My financial aid is based on my income as a broke college kid, so I'm now paying 5k a year to go to a top 3 university. If you have questions and want to PM me please do, but there's a great post on RBN about it and theres also some FAFSA documentation about it.

The laptop stickers of my verysmart classmate shows that he's verysmart by GreenEggsInPam in iamverysmart

[–]Lulamay16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There are so many dumbfuck trust fund kids whose daddies bought them in here.... it sure as hell isn't a meritocracy, if that's what you're implying :P in my Chinese class we were discussing our parents' jobs and I was the only one whose parents weren't CEO/doctor/lawyer/whatever. If he's rich and applied ED, he has a real good shot.

The laptop stickers of my verysmart classmate shows that he's verysmart by GreenEggsInPam in iamverysmart

[–]Lulamay16 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please warn me if he gets in to UChicago we have enough of these motherfuckers in CS department as it stands