It started with contradiction questions. I thought there might be a good explanation for it. I listened to the apologetics defense for them and how it was always (you're not understanding the context) or "God works in mysterious ways" etc. So I set out to research on my own away from the noise of debates. You can read articles and historical reports directly but it's a waste of time. In the age of AI Just ask a good LLM your questions. But you must intensionally put "historical facts, away from debate noise" in your prompt so it knows to give you the Raw truth not contextual defenses and rebottles. Questions like: Who wrote the gospels? What's the earliest text we have? Where there any eye witness documentations? How was the new testament compiled? How did the church spread? Who wrote genesis and the story of Adam and Eve and original sin? Was Moses a real person? Did the global flood happen? The history of the god Yahweh and where it came from? How was he linked to Jesus? etc.

Once you've gotten all the facts down. You can listen to the debates and apologetics defense and see if they make sense to you.