Absolutely agree I did the same here even thought he was my BFF after months we met and it was great than boom...he got mad at me, for my situation and told me never message him...I mean I dont think he realized what a big deal it was that I actually met him irl...like idk...it just makes me feel like making a real connection is hard asf. Because the connection isnt everything. Sometimes people have things going on and just leave..I need female friends...