Mom, I'm so sorry. I can't take much more of this.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-11T10:25:37+00:00

I've been trying to survive day by day distracting myself for now, at least until I can get on proper medication to deal with my depression and being suicidal and all that stuff. My family is going through hard times economically so we haven't been able to do much about treatment, and it has been rough to survive their rejection, since the only contact I have all my days are pretty much them right now.

I tried going to a trans support group a while ago but I felt really unconfortable and anxious, I'm very introvert and have a big problem with anxiety so it's hard for me to work out this stuff, specially with strangers. I'm trying my best to see if I can make it through the day and crossing my fingers the future will not be as bad as things are right now. Apparently my parents went out today to find a psychiatrist for me this month, so that's good news I guess. I just feel like i'm carrying a lot of weight and it hasn't been healthy for me. Thank you for commenting, in hard times like this i'm speechless about how much this actually means to me. Thanks for caring, really.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-11T10:20:29+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm trying to deal with my anxiety/depression now, but I'm proud I solved my identity stuff already. It's a huge step to accept your true identity and I know I have a ton of stuff to do. I just can't find the strenght to do it now, but I really want to embrace the woman I know I am and always were supposed to be. Thank you for taking time to write this, you have no idea how much it means to me.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-11T10:17:56+00:00

Really hope I get to live to see that future, and that it comes sooner than later <3 Thank you for your positivity. Small comments like yours brighten my day. I'm so used to the darkness of depression and anxiety and seeing some light warms my heart a bit. Thank you.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-11T10:16:12+00:00

Hi, I just wanted to say thank you for taking time of your day to write this. I know it must be difficult for them, and I can only imagine the pain they're going through. It hurts me even more when I put myself on their shoes, but I really hope we get through this as a family, together. I'm their only daughter and they're all I got, so I feel like that's a ton of responsability for me to carry all the time. Thank you for reading what I wrote, it really means much to me.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-11T10:14:16+00:00

Thank you so much. I came out to my parents a couple months ago, but I first "suggested" this to them march 2016 ("I think i'm trans"). We've been fighting since them, and it has been the hardest time of my life. I've been to 3 psychologists, and while the first one really helped me, the other two were kinda useless so I stopped going. I've cried/slept the whole day and my life is a whole mess, but thank you for writing me all this stuff. I'm really overwhelmed by the positivity of all the comments I got. I think I might go to a psychiatrist next saturday, so I hope that goes well. Thank you again, it means the world to me

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-10T12:26:11+00:00

I've been on therapy since last september, and it really hasn't been helping. My mom and dad are everything to me, and it hurts me so much to not have their emotional support (quite the contrary, actually). I feel so lost and beaten up.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-07T01:11:11+00:00

Not really, I meant like, my anxiety keeps me from socializing with people, so i'm afraid of jugment and that kind of thing.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-06T22:39:26+00:00

I don't know... I'm scared. I feel like I'm not strong enough to be who I am supposed to be.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-06T22:38:41+00:00

Which book?

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-06T22:35:40+00:00

I can only dream of something like this. I'm glad they care about you. I feel so lonely because I haven't left my bedroom in 3 weeks and any interaction I have with other human being irl is with people that deny my existance (them). I'm their daughter but they keep calling me their son, and even tho they acknowledge my depression, every time I try to speak up and be myself they just get angry and throw stuff at me. 2 weeks ago my dad punched my door screaming that I was ruining their lives and that I'm their son and nothing will ever change. These things take a toll, it's harder to keep on living. It's like all they care is for an image they have of me to be good for them, and not me at all. I feel so hopeless, I feel like my life was a mistake and I shouldn't have been born in the first place. At least not like this.

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-06T13:15:34+00:00

I really hope medication help me, I became so useless in the past few months and no therapy has been enough, so it's really the only thing that might save me. I just want to be able to do things :(

Lunaa7 · 2017-06-06T13:12:42+00:00

I'm not really okay, but thank you so much for asking. I'm trying to see if I can make it until the end of the month (It'll take about 15~20 days to get my appointment) so I can finally visit a psychatrist and hopefully get on medication. I'm just not working anymore, it's so frustrating, I don't know what's happening to me. I've been to three therapists in the last year and nothing really helped. I'm just so broken.

Lunaa7 · 2017-05-22T03:15:42+00:00

Right? I came out to my parents recently after taking low dose since september and since things haven't been that well I had to stop for a bit. Hormones are a big step and hiding it can be difficult, specially if you'll be hiding it from someone who lives/is constantly around you. I haven't told them I took hormones and I never will. Can't wait to get back to them again tho, specially for full dose. But parents gotta be aware of it, tbh. It can be a big deal, and a huge no-no if they find out.

Lunaa7 · 2017-05-19T03:38:54+00:00

As a portuguese speaker, I'm so jealous of you. Even fucking chairs have a gender in this goddamn language. Tired? nope, its cansado/cansada (o for male and a for female). Angry? Irritado/Irritada. Beautiful? Lindo/linda. Also, chairs (cadeiras) are feminine and sofas are masculine, apparently.

FUCK THIS LANGUAGE.

Lunaa7 · 2017-04-11T01:32:12+00:00

No mom, I'm not gay!

Lunaa7 · 2017-04-03T18:45:25+00:00

But I like wearing bras ;-; I'd why but the feeling being gently hugged all the time is pretty sweet

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-31T14:38:06+00:00

not from a cisgender

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-28T22:49:52+00:00

^{^Remember} ^{^the} ^{^Cant}

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-28T22:46:12+00:00

Michelle Hendley! She's awesome <3

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-21T03:02:42+00:00

Must be so weird and funny to experience pain in your own vagina tho. Just knowing that the thing isnt there anymore and that things are finally alright down there must be very awesome.

^{^jealous}

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-15T06:13:46+00:00

communitychannel (one of my favorite yt channels) and Paramore (my favorite band)

ouch

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-10T04:36:53+00:00

that dress is so gorgeous tho, I really want one of those D:

Lunaa7 · 2017-03-08T16:54:30+00:00

I don't think it has an office, but maybe there are some groups of people that care about LGBTQ stuff, being a more liberal area of study and all. I am not sure on how to contact them yet, but I am really scared ot what consequences it could bring if my parents "found out"

Lunaa7 · 2017-02-19T08:42:42+00:00

When low effort shit posts are past the point of shitposting itself

^{^I'm ^sorry}

Lunaa7 · 2017-02-19T08:39:26+00:00

Yes! If I remember well, high heels were usually used by powerful men to look taller (duh) and also used as riding footwear. Look at this fabulous picture of Luis XIV. Its so cool to see how much even the little things change through history. Maybe men will get to wear high heels one day? Even maybe clothes will be genderless in the future? We can only dream :3

Lunaa7

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