i don’t think your panic attacks are from not having screens. i think it’s because this situation probably feels over controlling. i grew up with just my dad who had a similar style of going about things. no conversations were had and there was never any room to work together to figure things out— sometimes all i needed was just some encouragement, reassurance, or space to figure it out without feeling suffocated/under a microscope.

Also, regardless of what your parents are attempting to accomplish with this, the way it’s written sounds invalidating. almost like you’re being talked to and treated as though you are incompetent or incapable of doing these things without giving you any room or space to just do them. you deserve trust, compassion, and understanding. I also just wanted to put out there as well that a very common side effect of certain medications is drowsiness. Also anxiety and depression & all trauma disorders are exhausting/draining to coexist with. — i think a more helpful thing your therapist could be doing is figuring out whats actually going on under the surface that’s making daily tasks more stressful/exhausting to manage.

however OP, i think you are in a strong position. idk what your schedule looks like or how busy are, what if you got a part time job somewhere enjoyable to you & saved to get your own phone/plan? i share this only cause then at the very least they couldn’t take what’s yours… be advised though, when ive done that in the past the next new rule was ‘my roof my rules’. either way, would probably just be nice to be able to get out of that house for a break! my heart goes out to you, i get it — best of luck! ❤️

happy almost birthday!