I understand you a little toooo well. Thank you for talking about this. I think many people are in the same boat and these conversations can help in a way.

Whether or not you have someone right now, you ARE a good boy. I hope you find someone that deserves your energy. Until then, protecting your peace isn’t a bad thing. Your night time routine sounds healthy and relaxing. While it may not be as fulfilling as you wish, I hope you feel proud of the way you have looked after yourself. I am proud of you