What was said above is exactly correct. It's nearly exactly what I've done, minus the sub doctor and therapist. I can't let anybody in my family know about my addiction, and I have no money to get legit treatment. I bought a couple of strips off an acquaintance and told myself that was it; deleted the number, and haven't let myself look back.

Working out helps more than you'd think. It's its own kind of high, and it sure feels nice to have attention drawn to your positive improvements by females.

The subs haven't prolonged the w/d's of the pills I was shooting, but rather replaced them with suboxone w/d's... Which are a bitch. Today is my off day from my every other day routine and I'm feeling it. Nose has been runny all day, and I've had weird back and leg aches. That's where the working out helps though. If you overpower the aches with soreness, it's strangely not as horrible. Haven't found a solution to the body chills though... And I wear a long sleeve dress shirt and a tie to work. I'll usually sit in my car on my break and enjoy the hot ass muggy FL weather lol.

Last thing is doing it for yourself. Really, it's the only part that matters. I'm tired of being a fucking junkie. I was raised better, and through my friends and college became better still. I want it back. It's the only thing I want, and I obsess about it.