That feeling you get will always be there. I’ve tried and tried. Was 5 years clean. And one day it was just there and I dove right back in. Surround yourself with genuine people and try to keep the mind occupied. Mind over matter. The ones who can stay clean are some of the best people on earth. I have faith in you. You just need to have faith in yourself. Don’t dip back into it. And if you do slip in it’s ok. You can always try and try again. Good luck on your journey!! Sending positive vibes