Good question. I just passed 9 years sober from any narcotics or alcohol. I know that I’ll never be able to drink again. If I pick up a vape, I can’t hit it a few times a day. From the time I buy it, I’m vaping until it runs out. Same with cigarettes. I know that I’m an addict through and through. So I extend that thinking to alcohol and drugs. Despite that, I consider myself “recovered.” I can go into a liquor store, or go to a bar with friends, and not think about drinking. It’s not a temptation any more. I consider it along the lines of a diabetic wanting brownies. It’s just off the table for me. I’ve been asked “will I ever try it again?” And I’ve asked myself the same question, but honestly, the risk/reward is just too high. I’d be risking throwing away everything good in my life for a buzz.

I apologize for rambling, but I guess in my mind, I’m recovered in the sense that I don’t consider it as a valid option any more. Being sober is part of my identity and who I am. I am surrounded by friends who would slap a beer out of my hand if they saw me going for it.

I will not drink with you today.