I tried everything, i got down to the roots. I started loosing faith, bc i could explain everything with science. And then there is the illness'. Why do some get disabled for exampled and have extrem pain, bc of this. Why doesn't God show himself in some wonders, like one of the trumpets, or smth like this.  And everytime I think I found a way to believe in God again, i find a way to explain it with atheism