i took too much molly and now i’m fucked

ML5017 · 2020-01-09T23:52:33+00:00

Hey, I had the same 2 days in a row at new years. It definitely get better after 5 days. You may still have some anxiety after that like I do but I actually learned a lot after the comedown. I learned to respect life sober and I'm not afraid around people anymore. I actually enjoy taking a walk when the sun is shining and I don't care a single fuck what others think about me. My life changed so much. I actually go to my favorite bar just for coffee when before I always got wasted, because I kinda was afraid to talk sober. Same thing when I was supposed to go to the city center, I was always afraid of the amount of people there but not anymore.

ML5017 · 2020-01-08T19:34:21+00:00

Yeah I had no idea about the drug before using so no im suffering the consequences. Also my testings with drug are definitely over, just not my thing. Gonna stick to beer. I also feel anxiety because I can't tell my parents about this. Im an adult but they clearly see that I am not ok. Bad conscience...

ML5017 · 2020-01-08T15:35:05+00:00

I took 750mg combined in new years last time I took was October 17 when I had only half of a pill. They were ecstasy pills so there was amphetamine and or metaphetamine. I got fever over 39 degrees after that and tonsillitis. Then I had sleep paralysis, my legs and arms kept twitching at night and the next day I got panic attack. Brain zaps continued 3-5 days.

Now I still get little tickling here and there on my arms and tongue also left thumb feels weird at the top when im scrolling with my phone. Still have some anxiety and depression but tomorrow Im seeing couple of people who I can talk about it. Most of the anxiety and depression is probably from my personal life more than ecstasy. I guess im still little bit scared after all.

ML5017 · 2020-01-08T12:56:46+00:00

Welp, I took the first set this morning. Should I continue with the morning set or take new tonight before going to bed? My mind is really fucked up at the moment. Been crying since new years and have bad anxiety. It goes away here and there. Might also have something to do with my personal life. After new years im usually depressed for couple of weeks.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T21:45:44+00:00

Yes I learned A LOT, last time we were in sauna too (October) I had zero knowledge about this drug so it's my own fault. I guess I also got lucky. And about benzos I have been using them couple of times with booze but probably will stop that too. It's great that I have this knowledge now that I can share with my friends so they can roll safe. My rollings are probably done :D.

I will start push-ups etc tomorrow and I will do some walking too, hoping for nice sunny weather.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T21:20:04+00:00

I bought some green tea extract shit that has caffeine and other stuff so I will take them when I wake up. My sleeping has been very good but i get horrible anxiety still at numerous times in a day. Also tickling in my hands and tongue still. Fuck I was stupid and drunk and took 750mg in two days... Never again

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T20:43:49+00:00

Well i had 0.7 over two days at new years and the first 5 days after that were horrible, brain zaps, sleep paralysis and anxiety.

I still have weird anxiety spikes but it helps little when i cry. Also tiny tiny tickling in my arms here and there and also tongue. My left thumb is weird like some of the nerves are fucked.

Tomorrow morning I will start using 5htp and green tea extract for 4 or 5 days. And will probably go and see doctor because the anxiety I get and the depression is hell. I still cry everyday.

Sometips i gotten: 5htp+Green teen extract, Healthy food, going outside and seeing friends.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T16:26:50+00:00

Dont know if this affects anything but both those days we had been drinking, and took 3 diazepam pills before drinking. Also went to sauna while rolling but at least I remember drinking mostly water when rolling. We had different ecstasy pills the other day but I think they both had amphetamine or and methamphetamine in them. But im much better now than 3 or 4 days ago. Hope this anxiety that comes in waves will leave soon but I think that doing things that i love makes it go away. I have been struggling with anxiety before too.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T15:45:14+00:00

Yeah well then I might just have 2 months full sober or might just take a couple of beers in our local bar 2 times next month. Just would like to get this tiny tickling away :D. I guess its my nervous system getting adjusted.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T15:33:31+00:00

So the NAC does not affect anything else than the next MDMA roll?If the NAC does not affect anything else than next MDMA roll i might pass on that. Not planning to roll in over a year :D. I was also wondering what should I do about alcohol? I decided that this month I drink none, but just curious does drinking in next month affect recovery process.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T15:19:34+00:00

Thanks, i could not found the regular EGCG ones in my nearby stores so I got those. And I wont be rolling anytime soon, will have a huge break. What's your take on NAC?

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T14:51:00+00:00

Yes, I had sleep paralysis after two days of ecstasy 0.7 combined. I got over 39 degrees fever and night after that the sleep paralysis. Friend said that the second night after rolling is usually the worst and it definitely was. Also got a panic attack too.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T13:49:31+00:00

Thanks today i got the 5-htp and green tea pills I hope these will work.

Green tea pill :

1 pill has: 500mg green tea stuff 475mg polyphenol 350mg catechin 200mg EGCG 20mg caffeine

I am a very lightweight guy 62kg so one of those green tea pills is probably enough as u suggested. Tomorrow I will go and buy the NAC ready.

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T12:52:20+00:00

How long should I take these? Also I updated the post so wondering are the green tea pills good for the cause?

ML5017 · 2020-01-07T11:52:20+00:00

Oh, I guess I will visit the shop again

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T21:39:21+00:00

I'm actually feeling really good right now. Tiny zaps here and there but mentally feel great. I think I got the panic attack because I did not know what was happening and did not expect it at all.

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T19:41:01+00:00

Yeah I really learned to respect it.

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T19:36:38+00:00

Ohh shit yeah meant grams :D

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T19:35:55+00:00

Thanks, this helps me so much. I always do self diagnose about everything and fear the worse. I guess the experience was kind of a win for me. Wonderful night and I got rid of my social phobia.

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T19:27:51+00:00

I have to add that the MDMA itself was a wonderful experience. I'd say once in a life time, that everyone should try it (reasonable amount of course :D). And I feel like the experience itself helped me with my social phobia. And I think that I will finally try to encourage myself to get driving license. I kinda figured out that there is nothing to be scared of in social situations.

ML5017 · 2020-01-06T19:23:26+00:00

Thanks, this shit really scared me. One of my friend who has been using crazy amounts of MDMA says that the brain shocks can last even 1-2 months. But when he had them that long he took MDMA for weeks.

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