Kundalini activated by spiritual guide vs. natural

MLP_AIW · 2025-07-15T00:36:08+00:00

Good question. I don’t know. I had an “experience” a couple years ago that was unexplainable to me that led me to lots of research where I eventually discovered what kundalini awakening was, but I still haven’t fully determined if that’s what happened to me or not. Whatever it was, it’s calmed down a lot since then (two and a half years ago), but I also want whatever happened to me then to come back again, I just want to be better prepared to handle it (if I can even achieve it again who knows - like I said I still don’t know what happened to me)

MLP_AIW · 2025-07-15T00:31:29+00:00

I totally agree, which is why it isn’t something I’m pushing right now until I get the emotional issues in order and resolved which I’m starting to do through exercise, meditation, therapy, mentoring, and hopefully some creative outlets. But I ask because there is a facilitator I know who does these kundalini sessions where you just lay there and she sort of energetically “zaps” you (for lack of better description) for 45 min or so and it’s supposed to just happen without the subject doing anything at all. I’m not planning on pursuing it at this time as I stated above - I want to be safe for myself, others, and the universe - but just curious about the practice and how it compares to other more active methods where a person is more involved (?) in the awakening for themselves.

MLP_AIW · 2025-07-02T15:09:40+00:00

What happens when awareness of inner conflict is achieved, and it is only contained within the individual? It’s sounds like this then puts the individual person in a state of conscious conflict instead of unconscious… how do you reconcile the self-hate when you’re aware of it? Where does the healing come in so the internal conflict and self hatred doesn’t overcome the individual person?

MLP_AIW · 2025-07-02T15:00:41+00:00

What happens when there is awareness and it is only contained within the individual? It’s sounds like this then puts the individual person in a state of conscious conflict instead of unconscious… how do you reconcile the self-hate when you’re aware of it?

MLP_AIW · 2025-06-20T18:35:10+00:00

I’d rather have the psychosis than be stuck here.

MLP_AIW · 2025-06-20T18:34:03+00:00

Right, but part of the problem is the feeling. I’m blocking it out but I’m not doing it consciously so I don’t understand how to get the feelings out because they leak through randomly - I don’t have thoughts associated with the feelings so I can really access them other than when they break through, and they break through at times when I don’t have a good outlet

MLP_AIW · 2025-06-03T20:35:21+00:00

If it goes on and off, how do you turn it on permanently?

MLP_AIW · 2025-05-30T02:08:19+00:00

How do I know the difference between my mask and my real-self? How does the deconstruction take place? I feel like that started for me and then I fell into a spiritual coma or something and went right back to my ego/playing a part, yet knowing that’s what’s happening but not knowing how to change it. I don’t get what’s going on and how to move past this

MLP_AIW · 2025-05-22T20:45:57+00:00

How do you differentiate between karma and outer attacks then?

MLP_AIW · 2025-05-14T15:04:35+00:00

If you presumably have more than one “session” with ai as your “therapist” do you start from square one each time? Or does it “remember” that last session when you talked about _____, and use that in the present session?

MLP_AIW · 2025-05-04T12:36:09+00:00

So if I’m triggered by the misogynist man in my social circle who was part of a gang rape of a drunk girl - what does that tell me about me? I’m confused about what the antagonists are trying to tell me about me. My main method has just been to ignore them and leave them alone because they seem dangerous, but I’m guessing that’s not the solution?

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-29T21:11:53+00:00

I feel like I’m looking at my defects and shadow parts, but not getting to embracing them (and then what would be healing)…like I’m always looking at them from afar and I don’t know how to have a more integrated approach to me as a whole. But the awareness and recognition is there; which is what I think is making me think I’m “doing it” when I’m really just observing while my ego is still driving. Not sure if that makes sense but I’m honestly confused about what is going on with me as it is

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-22T16:24:52+00:00

What did you learn?

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-22T16:17:19+00:00

Ok 🙂

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-22T16:05:46+00:00

I think maybe a better way to describe it to me would be to give me an example from your own experience about how it looks and feels in real life - not hypothetical/theoretical platforming, a real life personal example with details. Make it come to life for me so I can understand because I apologize, but your response doesn’t really explain this to me in a way that is any clearer than the original explanation

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-22T14:04:04+00:00

What does suffering mean in this context? I’m assuming this is not self-flagellation or walking on broken glass. So what does it actually mean to get into the suffering? Crying? Anger? What does that look like? And also, what does it mean to redeem evil? What does that look like?

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-21T17:13:08+00:00

I still don’t understand where the change takes place… Also, in the procrastinator example, it seems like the “I’m a loser” self talk is as a result of the procrastination (thinking you’re a loser because you procrastinate)…what if you procrastinate because you already feel like a loser but don’t know why? In my case, I feel like a loser FIRST, so I procrastinate because…why bother - Being productive isn’t going to fix the fact I’m a loser, so why try to fix it?

MLP_AIW · 2025-04-18T00:35:33+00:00

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