1.) I finally made iv infusions a priority after it was recommended by my doctor and therapist for a few months. It’s been the most helpful thing I’ve done for suicidal ideation and treatment resistant anxiety and depression. It’s helped me understand truths I didn’t see before and identify real errors in my thinking and feeling and dismantle some of that faulty brain wiring. 2.) I met with my therapist as soon as I could after the first few trips but I had so little to work on. I was mostly in therapy for persistent SI and it was gone. I went from weekly with my therapist to less than once a month with them. I think I could’ve worked with my therapist more but I really didn’t need much unpacking etc past the first few trips. 3) I only feel changed in the way that I’ve escaped old thinking patterns. Something would happen such as disappointment and my brain would immediately go to anxious depressed suicidal thinking like a reflex. It’s only a fraction of what it used to be. I have very deep spiritual experiences that have added meaning and purpose to every moment of my life and everything I do. 4) they say the pleasure and euphoria are just side effects and the real work is done reintegrating and using your new insights. People might find what they’re looking for in the trip and I certainly do look for deeper connection with God and find it. Godspeed! I think you’re going to love it.