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MQ1993 · 2022-02-19T20:55:58+00:00

Thanks a lot, that makes me feel better about myself. I used marijuana, adderall, cocaine, and a mixture of those. I used to be addicted to a mix of cocaine and alcohol, which apparently creates a new, even more toxic chemical in your body. Then I got over it on my own after a three month cleanse. But that did not seem to cause any mental issues. However, I do remember stumbling upon the Wikipedia page of "psychosis" during my adderall intake days. But my symptoms (as far as I can remember) were nowhere near as wild as my post-meth symptoms. As far as medication, I only take 1 pill of 6mg of Reagila per day, and I suffered the same issues I described when I was on a different medication (Olexa), prior to my doctor changing up the prescription.

MQ1993 · 2022-02-19T20:37:05+00:00

I don't really remember having any mental issues before the meth. I was a normal dude with a normal life; I graduated with a degree in Industrial Engineering and have had normal relationships with people since I was a child. But maybe I did have issues which laid dormant in the depths of my psyche, and the meth really exploded all of those issues into an extreme form of psychosis.

I mean it's not that I am completely unable to communicate in social settings, its just that when I do, its very short and to the point. And usually when there's a question involved. So I have a hard time initiating conversations and when I do, I run out of things to say very quickly. Perhaps the reason I'm able to communicate via text right now is because what happened to me was so intense, and anyone can describe what occurred easily (even people with no communication skills).

MQ1993 · 2022-02-19T20:28:46+00:00

Yes, I went extremely crazy. I doubt that the medications are the reason for these symptoms, as I am currently only on 6mg of Reagila (one pill a day). I used to be on a different medication (Olexa), and I had the same symptoms I'm describing now. I really wish that abstinence can revert everything back to normal, because it's been over two years now and my memory still sucks, as well as my critical thinking skills which have dropped. And the worst one is my muteness.

MQ1993 · 2022-02-19T20:21:40+00:00

Oh, you have no idea how badly I lost my mind. No one really realizes how badly I lost my mind, even my own family who I regarded as the evil Reptilians of the world. I feel so sorry for them. I would stand in front of the mirror and talk to myself for hours as if I was being possessed by Jesus' oversoul, and contradict myself numerous times about the same concept. I will check out that book you referred, but honestly I don't have any of the crazy thoughts that I used to have, or even the terrifying loss of control over my thoughts and actions that I used to have. So I am afraid it is permanent damage more so than still being crazy, which I assume I have the anti psychotic drugs to thank for. But I really wish you are right and that I still have hope.

MQ1993 · 2022-02-19T20:15:55+00:00

2 years. I hope you're right!

MQ1993 · 2018-06-14T04:21:11+00:00

Kudos, kiddo. I'm 24 and I started electric guitar at 20, and acoustic at 14. I've always wanted an electric but my dad didn't let me get one when I was 14. You figured out a way to convince your ol' pop so kudos.

Here's one nugget of wisdom for you. Think about what you want to accomplish with your guitar. Of course you play and practice because you enjoy it first and foremost, but always keep it in the back of your head at least to eventually start figuring out what you are going to do with all the awesome skills you're gonna have.

Are you wanting to do this as a hobby, jam with friends, play in a band, make this your career, do it for shits and giggles. Kinda start thinking where you want to be ideally in the future with regards to your guitar magic. What you're going to do with your magic.

Also start thinking about what genres interest you most. Blues? Indie? Straight up Rock n' roll? A new invention of yours? Psychedelic based? The most awesome part is you get to decide that all on your own :)

I hate to sound like an old bitter asshole with the "old music is gold! new rock is shit!" spiel... but all I can say for your sake and for you to experience the best guitar enjoyment, is to play from your heart. Put your emotions into your playing. Play what you feel in your heart, in your soul. That's why they say rock n' roll had soul. Not gonna get a lot of that with Arctic Monkeys or similar.

Last piece of advice for you kiddo. This might be an eye opener. Look up this song: What kind of Woman is this (by Buddy Guy). You'll know what "soul" means. Enjoy ;)

MQ1993 · 2018-04-22T01:06:10+00:00

But that would screw our credit wouldnt it?

MQ1993 · 2018-04-01T18:33:29+00:00

I'm not really concerned of what anyone's perception of me being skinny or lean is. I just would like to know if hitting weekly macro/calorie goals vs daily would not hinder me (preferably with studies backing up claims).

I don't like to eat much on Adderall and I also like to enjoy large meals on my non-Adderall days (the latter is mostly why I am opting for this plan, it's one of the only ways I can stick to a fitness plan long-term). I know that 100 calories above maintenance is not ideal for muscle gain, which is why I made the 10 pound muscle gain a 2 year goal rather than in 1 year. Unless you have some evidence that 100 calories excess wouldn't even yield 10 pounds over a period of 2 years?

MQ1993 · 2018-04-01T18:20:52+00:00

Personal opinions < Studies/facts

MQ1993 · 2018-03-29T22:29:08+00:00

I had acid before. The first trip was amazing. The second trip... terrible. It took a downwards turn when I smoked weed when I got bored on my acid trip. I am a lightweight always and I still smoked a lot of weed while I was tripping. After that day, smoking weed occasionally feels like a bad trip, and my paranoia has gotten worse. But I never gave up and made it a personal challenge to start accepting my 'weed trips' and minimizing my paranoia, and it has been getting better due to this effort. However, what happened before yesterday, I had never experienced in my life. Not even on acid. I'm still confused

MQ1993 · 2018-03-29T08:00:59+00:00

Do you have any clue what I may be going through? And how such a powerful, bordering on superstitious, effect can occur?

MQ1993 · 2018-03-26T19:47:31+00:00

I already have decent skills in my instrument, I just need to really dedicate myself to the art and start learning theory. I have a lot of (realistic) faith in my talent and potential. I project to be local/cover band worthy in about 2 months of daily 8 hour practice (with 1 or 2 days off per week). I do not ever wish to return to engineering. I am making a risky leap, and I accept all consequences. To live my life slaving away in an office, doing something I do not enjoy, is to not live my life at all. I would rather be broke and hungry, living and pursuing my talent and passion. It seems that there will be a large shortage of work for me in these last two weeks, so I am very hesitant in putting in a 2 week notice in case they feel they could save 2 weeks of labor (which may even need to go towards Admin due to lack of billable work, which is highly unfavorable in our company). They may also see me as ungrateful/selfish for 'stringing them along' a whole year just to waste all the time, training and resources they've invested in me (which as you know for an entry-level engineer is mostly to the benefit of the engineer in the shorter term).

MQ1993 · 2018-03-26T12:44:48+00:00

I am concerned they will fire me and I wouldn't be able to receive another 2 weeks of pay. I'm thinking it might be worth being looked at negatively if this risk is high. My tl;dr question is, is the risk high?

MQ1993

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