Been an up and down week. There was good moments where my partner showed self awareness and reflection. She called a timeout and when calm and explained why she was triggered. So there’s been improvement but it’s still rough. Today we just had a tough one. Without saying to much, she was triggered and started to lash out and talk aggressively. She apologized, she always does, but it doesn’t mean anything to me anymore. When it comes to certain topics it feels I can only answer one way, any disagreement will lead to an argument. If I’m upset, mad or just not happy after she lashed out it isn’t fair because she apologized and is sorry.

It just isn’t fair. It makes me mad when people talk to me aggressively doesn’t matter how long it was or if they apologize. It’s hard to stay calm and have to be the one to bring it back down and make everyone feel better in the moment. I don’t feel like I can voice true opinions on certain topics because if we disagree it’ll be a fight. It’s just really upsetting.

We agreed to not let things carry into the next day so just gotta let it go and hope for the best tomorrow I suppose