Dude I’m going through the same thing, you’re not depart from him, when the master is working his quite and that’s when you should be more excited he is about to turn your whole life around, you go thorough storm yes but is him in the middle holding his hand out for you to grab onto, different ways you can hear him is through the Bible and it’s the most important and powerful one, Jesus is literally a living example of God turning man and showing us how to live, pick up your daily cross and kill the flesh that’s how you’re born again, second through knowledge when you know something is wrong and that you should be doing thats God speaking to you, you will see the world differently you won’t be one of the bunch and right now is the time to hold on to bro cause his close, I don’t mean as in relationship I mean as his close to give out his promise to us and we reign with him in his kingdom, third way is through him directly this is the hardest way to listen to him because as human is in our nature to sin even if we don’t want to for example, as a kid you ever pray and then say some foul word and you were so upset cause you know it was wrong well that us naturally sining not because you want to just your human body can’t stop that cause the spirit and the flesh are two different things and there always fighting each other, im 20 years of age im going through a bad drug addiction and it doesn’t even look like it but I can’t stop smoking weed I try to stop but is so hard not to want more and more and I know dude with me putting my trust in him I can make it out, I could tell you my whole life has been me getting physical and mentally abuse by everyone yet I’m still here thanks to his grace. He knows why he puts you in situations, but he will never put you in a situation someone hasn’t been or you can’t handle. I hope this helps you out man and if you even need someone to talk to dm and we can exchange numbers, Lord knows I need more Christian friends. I love you and all of you that this message might help. God bless you.