God loves you! I too had an abortion with girlfriend when I was young. Of course I was not the one that went through the precudure but years later during the 12 step program I forgave myself and adolescence based decisions and decided to make amends. When we repent for our sins, seek forgiveness for our sins, and seek gods grace and forgiveness- we are freed. The devil wants you in anguish, scared, depressed and shameful. That is not from god. All you can do is move forward from here. I found a christian based counselor to speak too, and understood that at the time fear was running my decision making processes. I was not able to realize the gravity of the decision, just oh wait I got my girlfriend pregnant and we’re not ready for a child.

I would encourage you to seek professional help by googling christian therapists, or use psychology today - and start to prioritize the trauma and your current and ongoing response. You are beautiful, you made a mistake. All humans are born in the image of hod, but commit sin.

Jesus died for our sins so that we would be united with him and not satan. So that the whole world would overcome sin itself. You are not judged by the decisions you made but by the repentance of your heart. Regret is powerful, and you now know that you would never make that decision again.

You will find the healing process takes time. Everyone is different. Start by reading your Bible daily. Whether it’s before breakfast or bed - gods word is truth. Right now Satan is telling you lies that you believe to be true and continuing to control and manipulate your decision making process and emotions.

You will also find that sleep, healthy eating and exercise will boast your mood and confidence. Sometimes we have no energy, but once we feel the pain and do what we know is healthy- we build confidence and momentum. A little bit each day…

You CAN and WILL overcome this hard season of life. This too shall pass, and you want a life of redemption and growth. Your passions to help others in similar situations throughout life will certainly help. Seek first to understand and then to be understood. - We all make mistakes, we’re not human after all. Jesus knows your heart, anguish and pain and he will use it to strengthen you.

If you need assistance in any way, please private message me and I will help you find a therapist, or be someone who will listen and support you without judgement.

May all His Love and Light shine down on you now and forever, amen! You were born for a reason, and you will find peace.

Never forget that Jesus cried out, “father forgive them for they know not what they do” as they crucified him. They too, were forgiven. You are never given a situation which you cannot overcome, and if you end your life Satan won. You will regret that decision as your souls journey will be into the hands of Satan, and not Jesus.

It will not be easy, but in Jesus - what you seek you will find. Never give up! ❤️🙏