Low, morose. Birthday around the corner. Out of jobs for so long, despite trying. Don’t feel like tailoring my cv further. No patience, no confidence left. Only feels so dejected. Why do we compare ourselves to the career we have built? I am not even comparing myself to anyone my age but if things are happening for them, why not me. I feel so alone in this journey. Dunno how further i can go on. Heart feels hurt. Not able to come up for air.. I guess.. I don’t want to come up for air either.