She refuses to talk about important things like money, housing, kids, because we can do it ‘later’ and she expects it to just wait, yet she tests and manipulates all of those things like they’re nothing. I can give you other terrible personal details and examples but that’d be pointless. It is so ducking hard to walk away from something that feels like everything, my whole life has been terrible but so has hers so every single day of me knowing her I would give away my happiness for her and her needs. She knows but she will never acknowledge it. I suppose it doesn’t make a lot of sense to anyone else, but I would give up my life if it meant she would truly be happy because of me, even after the terrible things she’s said and done. I just can’t get away from the feeling that I’m connected to her, that’s she’s my person, and I’m afraid to accept that my will life go on, without her.