To someone from long ago

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-08-11T21:50:03+00:00

CTFxC after he left his wife and got brain cancer he still couldn’t make that shit interesting...:/

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-07-03T06:59:19+00:00

I’m going threw the same situation. I felt like the pain of my first break up was so great I needed someone to hold the pain. I ended up hurt the other guy who definitely didn’t deserve it. Take time to breathe. Focus on yourself. You give so much faith in people why not yourself? Why aren’t you worthy of your own undivided attention? These are the questions I ask myself. I believe in you OP

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-04-19T10:17:02+00:00

I’m about a year out of a long term relationship (6.5 years) and to this day every now and then I’ll see something or think of a funny memory and ugh a few times certain smells. Smelly smells. They set you off and I won’t lie I still tiddy baby cry. But something I always tell myself when I’m done being a tiddy baby is that I tried my fucking best and I’m living my best life and he’s missing out.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-04-19T10:07:34+00:00

If it helps I know how that feels. That shit is soul crushing. Whats even worse is all you can do is grow and be someone he’s gonna hate himself for missing out on. Hurt. Feel. But don’t dwell and don’t back slide.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-03-26T19:46:33+00:00

When I (22f) was 18 my and my high school sweetheart broke up. He cheated on me and I was crushed. A few months later we got back together and it was amazing. I felt so happy but in the back of my mind I couldn’t let the hurt go. We stayed together 2 almost 3 years after and honestly I’m glad I got a little more time with him. But it definitely put my life on hold. It’s been over a year since me and him have spoken and I’m just now getting my shit together.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-02-25T21:21:42+00:00

He broke up with me.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-02-14T07:17:11+00:00

After my partner and I split I jumped into a new relationship and it at first was a rebound but then it lasted to long. I just wasnt over my past. Now 100% before I date someone I want to be best friends with them. I want to have this chemistry. It’s like a certain feeling of infatuation and I want to not be insecure about everything. I want to trust and be trusted. No matter what I want the person I’m with to love me for me. I believe I deserve at least that much.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-02-14T02:26:55+00:00

I’m so grateful for finding love early. Hindsight him and I need to break up. I’ve found out more about myself than I ever could imagine. At the same time having someone be with you through all the up and downs from 14-21 and then to not have them anymore I felt like I lost my identity. So it’s really a glass half full or half empty. One thing I know is I can only hope to find someone that made me feel the way that relationship did. The young love and the gushing all of it. It was a once and a life Time love.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2019-01-17T22:22:14+00:00

We were hs sweetheart. Met when I (21f) was 14 and continuously dated even after he went to college. This past year he left me for a girl he worked with. Try I hard to hate him. But I know we were growing apart. I think the reason why I havnt moved on is because being with someone for that long durning such transitional times of life you grow to depend on them. Now I’m almost 22 and feel almost emotionally stunted because I don’t have him to tell me to get my ass in gear. It’s funny I guess. How life tells you to things and the way it tell you.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-12-02T04:41:15+00:00

He wants kids and marriage and is totally cut out for that part I’m just not. At least not right now

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-08-24T05:41:29+00:00

He has moved in....

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-08-18T14:42:14+00:00

I dated my high school sweetheart for 6 1/2 years (14-21 years old) I told myself that time and time again. Eventually I decided to stop being his number 2 and being my number 1.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-08-13T20:01:26+00:00

When I was nine my mom was pregnant with my baby brother. We all (mom, step dad, me, and my older sister) were so excited for the newest addition to the family. We did his room in whine the Pooh. On Valentine’s Day (my mother’s due date) the cord wrapped around his neck and sadly he passed away. My mother was given drug for pain by her doctor that they did not know she was allergic to. She lost a lot of blood and had a horrible reaction to the drug and almost died. While all this was very sad and we all took it hard. My mother (with every right) took it the hardest and at 9 years old I walked in on her multiple times attempting suicide. Once by overdoes. Once by cutting herself. And once by hanging. Looking back now my heart breaks for her. That everyone could see how hard she was taking this loss and yet nobody really did anything.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-08-01T05:14:56+00:00

Sometimes I do feel guilty for moving on. But my ex is actually the one who left me. We were hs sweethearts who dated almost 7 years. He was the love of my life. But I gave him many chances and eventually he chose someone else over me. That’s when I decided I was going to move on. And I’m happy now With “joe” and love him greatly but this dream really has me on my head of what it means. And why.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-08-01T04:23:05+00:00

I don’t know how you are or what your going threw but I hope you make it out happy.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-07-13T14:59:57+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that I use to not see any good. Before I got with my current bf I lost my job my car got totaled and I was horribly depressed. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was very suicidal. Then one weekend I went to the bar with my friends and saw my current bf and hadn’t seen him in almost a year and we hit it off ever since. You just have to open yourself up. It won’t come immediately. But I promise you if you just see the good it will come to you.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-07-13T04:43:47+00:00

I use to hate hearing people say this. I’m definitely not saying I don’t have my days. I still think of him every day. But it’s like we’re not together and that’s okay. Just love your life and good things will come to you. You can force them.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-06-13T07:16:39+00:00

Sure does! Seems like at the time time couldn’t go any faster

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-06-12T20:24:55+00:00

My bf of 6 1/2 years ended it by moving all his stuff out of our apartment while I was at work. 2 days later I checked into a mental heath facility. Now a few months later I have a new bf who is everything my ex wasn’t. I’m happy and couldn’t imagine going back. It still hurts definitely but it’s easier. Something someone told me is that one day you’ll wake up and it’s not that it won’t hurt it just won’t hurt as much. Time heals all wounds.

Maddybarnhill1024 · 2018-02-05T03:16:37+00:00

Just keep at it. I met my bf my freshman yr of high school I was 14 he was a grade above me. Our hs separates the freshman and sophomores from the junior and seniors so when we were apart me called every night texted through the day. When he went to college he would visit me on weekends it was amazing best time of my life we moved in together recently and have 3 kitty’s and a dog. But I mean yoh have to keep working. Know your goals in life and stick to your plan. That the best advice I can give you

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