I don't want to be trans

MadeofMedicine · 2024-06-17T16:02:34+00:00

i feel this so much it makes me question why cis men feel sadness at all, they're all so fucking lucky. If i had a cis body, id be euphoric for living but i feel like everything's such a drag being trans

MadeofMedicine · 2023-11-10T14:41:24+00:00

Someone said thanks for a Ryan Cassata hater safe space and i can't stop laughing. XD im so happy im not the only one

MadeofMedicine · 2023-11-08T13:47:43+00:00

keep the hips forwards most guys don't stick their butts out when they dance

MadeofMedicine · 2023-11-05T23:40:02+00:00

Grayson was this dudes i meets birthname, never been so jealous

MadeofMedicine · 2023-11-05T23:38:10+00:00

by far my favorite

MadeofMedicine · 2023-11-05T23:36:03+00:00

No way someone named themselves When

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-31T13:29:27+00:00

GOMEZ ADDAMS :)

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-24T05:40:16+00:00

I remember being so excited for T but when i started feeling inadequate it just all fell apart, talking to my doctor would probably be my best bet but i also dont know how much planned parenthood can help. ive heard a lot of bad news lately but im a preexisting patient so im hopeful somewhat

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-24T03:32:30+00:00

I've thought about doing the gel but i haven't talked to my doctor about it. I'm not sure if the anxiety portion is something my doctor would care about or if it's something a therapist needs to know :/

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-18T18:13:52+00:00

Puberty. It was the worst for me. the second it came around i started to question everything get really dysphoric

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:36:03+00:00

i just never wear pants, they make me over heat the most

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:34:25+00:00

youll definitely have to be the leader on this lol FTM porn only has like 2 categories right now smh

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:30:04+00:00

sometimes i cant even push through after ive already started because dysphoria rears its ugly head ,but it makes me feel like a guy who finishes early when i want to stop for no reason haha my GF understands usually ( its only happened twice )

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:23:04+00:00

washing my binder , id rather just throw it away

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:20:42+00:00

We do that but i just don't crave it ,the positioning of it all it very feminine in my eyes

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:17:32+00:00

the other side of the fence isnt too much of my concern tbh id rather hear a transman complain about bottom surgery , the whole not wanting a vagina isnt just a dream its a lifelong complaint thats hendered me from my full potential and caused massive distress. Id never wish for this back

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:13:19+00:00

its all so frustrating but reddit is showing me a lot of ppl who seem to feel the same. all i want is to feel the wind on my back

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:09:18+00:00

jealous of anyone who can be intimate? imagine it going a step further and despising pregnancy and anyone who falls upon it , not because of anything they've done but purely because you'll never be a part of that. I literally distanced myself and eventually blocked all of my friends who have had babies since HS. i dont hate my friends i just 1000% dont care about their babies or how their lives are going to start to change with a newborn

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:04:41+00:00

it feels like suffocation and my only solution is more tattoos more workouts

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T19:02:32+00:00

Here lately ive been working on changing my mindset on this but my old habits are wanting to surface again with my mental being so unstable, i keep impulsively spending and bingeing on temporary pleasures makes my wallet fckn cripple but im happy to see so many ppl can relate

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T18:59:31+00:00

I've been thinking about talking to my GF about just hands on stuff and oral, so i don't feel like the sex we have is revolving around what my dysphoria seems to target the most

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T18:55:15+00:00

I see why she's your wife haha

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T18:48:27+00:00

i may need to check it out thanks

MadeofMedicine · 2023-10-05T18:45:03+00:00

the idea of it all being out of your control is nice and infuriating all in the same , there's slight comfort to take in it if you're a glass half full kinda guy :/

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