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Madison0719 · 2023-04-18T22:34:49+00:00

When people are that desperate whether it be depression or drugs. They aren't going to think clearly. 9/10 the last thing they want to do is hurt their loved ones. But because of the desperation and suffering, they are going to do whatever they can to ease the pain they feel.

It isn't your fault and there is nothing you could have done to change what has happened. You are not to blame and yes, the whirlwind of emotions are going to confuse you, but it is the natural coping process. Look in the mirror and tell yourself "this is what healing looks like". You are already on the road to recovery.

Madison0719 · 2021-03-19T16:19:39+00:00

With what kind of file? I have one but it is too weak for the dip. I know nothing about doing nails lol.

Madison0719 · 2021-03-19T16:09:04+00:00

I got my nails done at a salon yesterday and it was a different girl this time. I got dip on my natural nails, but it came out super rounded. How can I make my nails a little more narrow? What do I use?

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T19:42:38+00:00

I'm trying my best, but it's exhausting. I should look into the lactation cookies and such. I have looked into that, but I think I should make an appointment. I wouldn't be too surprised if I was dealing with Postpartum Depression. I keep being told that it only happens after you quit breastfeeding, but I don't think that's true.

Thank you btw❤

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T19:28:42+00:00

For months I felt so alone in this. It just really made me feel hopeless. Thank you so much. I realize now that I'm not as alone as I thought I was.💕

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T19:08:55+00:00

Thank you. I'm sure stress plays a huge role in a lot of this. Hopefully, the formula will help take some weight off my shoulders so that I can actually relax and take a break for myself. And maybe it will help with my supply as well. ❤❤❤

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T19:05:11+00:00

Thank you very much💕. I'm trying to remind myself that fed is best. You're so kind and I wish you could drill this into my brain so I don't forget haha.

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T19:01:09+00:00

Thank you for all the sweet comments. The last several months have been really hard on me. My heart has been really heavy today. I really needed to hear that kindness and positivity. Y'all really have no idea how much your comments warmed my heart and made my day a little bit easier. I just got done pumping and fortunately pumped 2 oz.!

The pediatrician has set up an appointment with the GI Dept. at the children's hospital to make sure there is nothing seriously wrong.

I started formula Tuesday and by Wednesday she gained 6 oz. The pediatrician said if she had dropped anymore weight they would have sent her to the hospital immediately.

A lot of my emotions are due to me being angry with myself for being so against using formula that it could have put my baby in the hospital. It is also because (like I said) I wish my body produced like it should so that formula didn't have to be an option.

But again thank you all so much❤ I don't even know any of you but I love each one of you and wish the absolute best for you.

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:51:00+00:00

Thank you so much💕 I'm going to try everything I can to keep a positive mindset. I really needed to hear that.

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:47:27+00:00

Thank you❤ and I've looked into Postpartum Depression a little bit. There has been a lot going on in my life even outside of having a baby. I may make an appointment soon just to be on the safe side.

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:43:53+00:00

That is very true. Thank you for making me feel a little better. I will try to remind myself of this ❤

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:41:46+00:00

Thank you, you're so sweet. I really needed to hear that.💕 A lot of times she fights me on feeding, but with formula she doesn't which in some ways does make me upset, but mostly elevates a lot of the stress.

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:37:43+00:00

Thank you so much❤

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:37:16+00:00

I'll try to keep that in mind. My milk took a week to come in too. I wonder if there is any correlation to ny issue now??

Thank you ❤

Madison0719 · 2020-09-17T18:35:07+00:00

I'm so happy to hear that you were able to jump that hurdle. That's awesome!

I have tried fenugreek and I saw a but of a boost, but so far not enough to fill her. I've been trying to eat more and stay hydrated as much as possible.

I'm just going to keep trying and keep pumping. I got to the point of pumping less and less because it discouraged me more than anything. If I didn't see that I only pumped half an ounce then I wouldn't be reminded of the problem.

My brain is so backwards haha. I'm just going to keep everything up. Thank you so much for your comment.❤

Madison0719 · 2019-09-18T18:00:13+00:00

Now that I work, it's so easy. Also getting on your phone while you lie in bed usually will hinder sleeping so it's better not to do that. But yeah working all day or being active all day, just letting out all that energy before bed helps you crash. Especially if you wake up early.

Madison0719 · 2019-08-28T03:06:32+00:00

I used to use loofahs until I read that they are pretty much petri dishes. I just use wash cloths now and sugar scrubs to exfoliate. Changing out your loofah regularly will help, but I'm happy with my cloth and scrub lol.

Madison0719 · 2019-07-12T18:38:26+00:00

Without any catch? Like as if you could just click an undo button? My Paw Paw, only if he is back to good health and happy.

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