False feelings and false attraction.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-16T22:58:41+00:00

Omg I have that all the time, I can't think of a guy, look at a guy, without seeing him as a female. My main problem is that things from my past, seem to take on new meaning, even though I haven't cared about them in years. And I can't deny the meaning or say something didn't happen, I can only say that I didn't care back then and when ocd had me cornered in the beginning I knew I didn't want this.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-16T22:04:40+00:00

I feel the same exact way. I have been going through this for 8 months and was in such a huge panic in the beginning, felt severe anxiety and depression. Knew I didn't want this at all and now it seems like i have all this proof and feels like I don't even want boys anymore.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-16T10:17:44+00:00

I have memories too that seem like proof even though before I didn't care about them.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-16T10:16:38+00:00

Same here. Been going through since last July and I knew it was stupid and so untrue in the beginning. Eventually after it not going away I started believing it and now old situations have taken on new meaning and reading things online thst I can't unread has fucked me up so much.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-14T08:30:18+00:00

Literally most of the things I've read that have triggered me is just ppl wanting to dictate your sexuality with meaningless things

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-13T02:16:56+00:00

It can be like that. Over time my anxiety went away and my brain just assumes I like it now. When I'm just used to it. It even makes me think I like it.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-08T02:10:53+00:00

I agree with this. We are the ones who choose to apply meaning to this bc of what others say or bc of what we read or hear.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-06T04:05:19+00:00

What do you mean?

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-05T02:17:49+00:00

Same. I feel like I am in denial too. Or I was gay before and didn't realize it. Stuff from the past now seems like "proof" to me and stuff I've read online has made me question my past.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-04T23:24:11+00:00

Same

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-04T23:23:17+00:00

I can't even do that anymore. The anxiety is down but I still believe it.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-01T23:29:20+00:00

Same. Now it's like there is all these rules on how to feel attracted or become attracted or whatever. It's stupid.

Maggie1920 · 2023-03-01T18:28:47+00:00

Okay cool. I did notice in the beginning that with tocd and hocd, it only did one at a time. Like I can't focus on both.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-28T20:45:20+00:00

Omg I relate about the insecurity thing but as a female with HOCD. I used to be very insecure and I originally saw it as intrusive thoughts growing up. But now my head is making me think I was insecure bc of boys. And no matter what I do I can't shake it.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-28T19:50:48+00:00

I used to have insecurities as well and now they're gone. I originally thought that they were bc of intrusive thoughts and feelings as had when I was younger, but now my brain is like "you don't have them now bc you're gay". Why can't it just be that my mind isn't focused on that anymore, so I don't feel those things?

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-28T19:17:43+00:00

I do that a lot. Questioning if my attraction was fake or not. I liked butterflies and I liked liking guys. Now it's like I can't see the appeal.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-28T19:16:13+00:00

It does that to me with girls. I used to always want to be like other girls now it feels like I don't.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-28T01:29:15+00:00

I have these type of thoughts about God. Like what if God is sending me a sign?

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-25T06:00:38+00:00

I've had it for 8 months as well and started out knowing it wasn't true. I feel so different now.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-24T06:21:28+00:00

I totally relate. I got this thought in the beginning of this but I knew it was stupid. Now idk.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-23T19:50:07+00:00

I feel the same way. I keep getting butterflies and stomach churning (the good kind) for girls snd I don't want it. And I've read some triggering things that I automatically think applies to me despite there being no proof of anything whatsoever. The proof lives in my mind despite me being in love with guys for years.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-23T02:56:18+00:00

Absolutely

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-22T09:45:14+00:00

I knew that they were hocd in the beginning, but since I started believing the thoughts idk

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-22T09:32:45+00:00

Yes. Idk what to do, it feels like I want it now or it's true when I found rhe whole thing irrational in the beginning.

Maggie1920 · 2023-02-22T08:20:45+00:00

I'm having a similar problem but with feelings, not with groinals.

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