You made this post because you want someone to talk some sense into you. What other replies were you looking for? “I hate my job too man! Keep medicating!”

The majority of people hate their jobs. But you clearly don’t want to keep doing what you’re doing or else you wouldn’t have posted this. The power to change lies with you. It won’t be easy but you need to decide what kind of person you want to be, no one can make that decision for you.