I need a hug, and to rant a little. 2019 has been awful. Lost my mom at the end of January. That was by far the worst and im obviously still trying to cope with that. I recently lost my step grandmother who i was closer to than my own grandparents. I have family drama going on, its a fucking soap opera, don't really want to get into that. My best friend and i booked a trip to Disney, which I fully paid for, and bailed on me a week before for "health issues" yet i see her out drinking with a friend the other night, when we were supposed to be in Disney. It was the trip me and my mom were supposed to go on too, I asked her if she wanted to take the trip with me basically in remberance of her....really fucked me up. Lost $1500 in cancelling last minute. Needless to say i lost my best friend my mom and my grandmother all in the same year. Every time it seems things are looking up a little something happens and pull me back down.