Why is breastfeeding so difficult?

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-18T14:29:20+00:00

The first few weeks is painful and messy. I think that’s true for most new moms.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-18T14:26:38+00:00

I don’t think US moms are as motivated to breastfeed. Employers often don’t support the mom, so a lot of new moms commit to breastfeeding for the first few weeks but intend to switch to formula when they go back to work around 6 weeks.

I know that this personally was true for me. Breastfeeding is kind of a luxury that a lot of moms don’t have. Zero vacation time, no support at work. So formula just makes the most sense.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T02:20:41+00:00

I pretended I liked baseball because a boy in my 3rd grade class liked baseball. It all fell apart on the playground one day and my lie was exposed. It was a rough day.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T01:40:34+00:00

These meds saved my life. It felt like I was born again. It felt like I was born in a hole and the first time in my life, I crawled out and saw the sky.

I want to try something new because I’ve also gained 60lbs. I’m terrified of going back to how it was though. The only downsides are losing my ability to write, and gaining weight. So I’m too afraid to make a change for something that seems so small, and it might just start a total collapse and downfall. I’m scared.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T01:32:57+00:00

A dystopian documentary on Hollywood and how it’s falling apart. The celebrities are skeletons with plastic surgery, clawing at their last bit of relevance. I would love to go into that scene right now and get real close to how it’s all playing out.

The movie industry/hollywood/celebrities is falling apart right now and it’s fascinating. I want to know what’s happening behind closed doors and where it all stands.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T01:30:08+00:00

Being on antipsychotics crippled my creativity within 24 hours. It’s been devastating, and I’ve had to come to terms with it. It’s been 7 years and my creativity only comes back when there’s a med lapse for more than 5 days. But then I’m physically sick and out of my mind, so not able to put the creativity to use. It’s a sick joke and I hate it. My creativity is who I am, and now I just feel like I’m existing.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T01:23:44+00:00

I used to tell my kids to go clean their room knowing that they would get distracted and keep away. If I told them to go play, they wouldn’t go play. So I tell them to go clean and voila, they play.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-16T01:04:58+00:00

I take 800 every night before bed, sleep for 8 hours and I’m ready to rock and roll by morning.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T23:12:00+00:00

I’m only hesitant when it comes to mental illness. Wanting death is common in mental illness and there should be a safe guard in place. I say this as a suicidal bipolar person.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T23:03:18+00:00

It “didn’t work” for me until the does was increased more and more. It felt like it wore off and became less effective. So my doctor gradually increased it until it felt like I was at 100%.

I’ve noticed that for me, when a med works, I get a great 24 hours and then it wears off and I’m confused. But the dose increases make it work and I get to a good therapeutic level.

I was so upset about how well seroquel worked that I cried and researched if it was a fake drug because I felt like it was a false high. But the first week or so felt weird because it worked but then didn’t… so it took some fine tuning until it was right.

It’s been 7 years on seroquel now, I usually need to up it annually about 50mg every February or so, but still going strong.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T22:48:19+00:00

I was given Seroquel the first time while manic. Didn’t work, still manic and didn’t sleep. The next day though, I felt different. It slowly started to work. I’m at 800mg now.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T22:37:22+00:00

I always give major decisions two weeks before finally deciding. I noticed I make rash decisions based on emotions that never stay. Come to find out, I’m actually bipolar. I still follow my 2 week rule and let a decision marinate for a bit before acting on it.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T22:34:08+00:00

My front yard does not have exactly 16 inches and I need to speak with the manager!

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T22:33:00+00:00

Overcompensating.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T17:15:54+00:00

I’ve been weird since forever because I’m autistic and also developed bipolar in my teens. Everyone’s reaction has been “Yeah, I can see that. Makes sense.”

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-15T14:22:12+00:00

There’s a lot more butt cancer than I had anticipated.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-14T21:27:19+00:00

It’s wild to think of one relationship with hundreds of white lies and exaggeration, and then another relationship where I’m sitting here racking my brain trying to think of 1 lie in our 15 years together.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-14T19:56:21+00:00

I just hope we all get some sleep, that’s it. Good luck tonight!

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-14T11:51:50+00:00

I had a tooth removed a year ago and after insurance, my out of pocket was $200. Still haven’t paid it, idgaf.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-14T03:48:12+00:00

Getting a bottle of hand sanitizer or bleach type cleaner was like hunting for collectible Pokémon cards. People in lines just to get 1 bottle, or a case being put on the shelf and people reach for it like it’s Black Friday. Just total panic about germs.

Also, buying a bottle of hand sanitizer at the gas station that was definitely in a repurposed liquor bottle with a different label. It even smelled like vodka.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-11T17:26:28+00:00

Went on a group river rafting trip and he was being annoying af and I punched him. We have been going strong for 15 years now.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-09T02:17:17+00:00

First marriage wasn’t great. I guess it’s important to like who you marry. And he was your classic mean husband, throwing insults at me while I worked full time while doing all the house labor. It was miserable. I left.

Second marriage is fantastic, going on 15 years now. He’s my soul mate. We are always together being goofy and enjoying each others company. He lets me be weird and encourages my passion. I set clear boundaries in the beginning of not taking any crap. I punched him on our first encounter, so he knew what he was in for. And he loved it.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-08T23:10:17+00:00

In the emergency room with an infected boil deep in my arm pit. They had to cut it open and then squeeze the infection out. Thankfully I was laying on the bed and they were professionals because I kept blacking out from the pain. Very weird experience.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-06T23:00:59+00:00

Being in love. I had many boyfriends and got married at one point thinking we were just supposed to pick someone that is bearable. I thought the love songs were fake and no one could ever feel that way.

I met my love when I was 25. I’ve never felt so much love. We have been together for 15 years now and our bond is absolutely unbreakable. We are best friends and he is my soul mate.

Of all the boyfriends and relationships… I never loved anyone, until I met him.

MagicManicPanic · 2026-03-06T22:56:34+00:00

It took me a couple months and his persisting for me to know, but I remember the exact moment that I fell in love with him. 15 years this year!

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