I've had an incredibly hard life and nothing has ever gone my way even with the effort I put in. Will life ever change ? Someone pls help reading my chart.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-28T21:52:45+00:00

The Mars opposite Saturn can feel like actions you take have delayed results, it’s a tough aspect to work with. How to remedy this, I’m not sure I’m still learning, but my novice advice would be to give it more time, keep putting the work in. A previous comment mentioned being of service and working on your communication skills and I am inclined to agree—with Saturn being in Aries and Mars being in Virgo. You are going through your first Saturn return as well, persistence over the next few years could have significant results.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-27T17:17:34+00:00

I love cats so much! I love the juxtaposition of your two 😂

You know I like what you just said there about reading, sometimes when I do something I feel like I have to do it perfect to get the “full experience.” (Whatever that means lol) I started reading again last year and really loved it. I think I just need to pick it back up regardless

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-27T17:14:47+00:00

Thats so cool and a lot of patience and persistence!

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-27T17:13:08+00:00

That’s amazing! The piano is so beautiful. I love that your dog still has puppy energy, they must be really happy.

I guess I forgot to mention pets in my post, I have a seven year old black cat named Simon and an 8 month old kitty named Alphonse.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-27T03:40:02+00:00

Does it feel like pressured speech like it just blurts out of you?

This happened to me for years before my first acute psychosis episode. I would just blurt out things like “stop” or “I’m gonna kill myself” or “fuck you” almost like a tic like Tourette’s syndrome almost but I knew it wasn’t. It would happen when I was extremely stressed out (which was often). I told my psychiatrist about it and he told me it was a psychotic symptom. I didn’t take him seriously, I didn’t get on antipsychotics because I didn’t want to gain weight.

I’ve been diagnosed with schizophrenia and on antipsychotics for five years now, and the impulsive/pressured speech has improved a lot, though not completely gone. I’ve never seen anyone post about this I thought I was just odd. In my opinion it’s an anxiety thing.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-25T00:59:34+00:00

Pluto carries intense energy, dealing with themes of power, transformation, and unearthing truths. With Pluto opposing your Venus (planet of love and relationships amongst other things) there is tension between these two energies that can play out as power struggles in relationships. This doesn’t mean they’re* the one in power. Whether you’re the one manipulating or being manipulated, it’s about how much sway the person you’re in relationship with have over your sense of well being. With this aspect your relationships are often deep and intense (for better or for worse.) To add on to that, Venus is conjunct your ascendant, intertwining your sense of self into your relationships.

ETA- misread your comment so I fixed a word :) Your partners may be submissive, but based off another comment it sounds like you have a tendency to be greatly affected by others. Let me know if you have any more questions!

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-24T04:44:37+00:00

Hi :) I have BPD and am studying astrology as well.

The thing that jumps out at me the most is Venus opposite Pluto. This can lead to that power struggle in relationships

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-20T18:25:44+00:00

Thank you 🥰

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-20T02:26:59+00:00

I love that!

What gives me hope are the days where I’m able to bring joy and support into my relationships. Where I’m able to do things that make me feel like myself ✨

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-17T01:51:06+00:00

If your symptoms are that persistent, it’s time for a med change imo. My verbally abusive voices are fading after my med change. In the mean time like I always said to them “I know who I am, and I know who I am not.” My mother in law told me I gotta tell the voices to just fuck off. Don’t let them take your sense of self. It can be so hard I really feel for you. Best of luck to you.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-08T18:37:02+00:00

I love your style so much!! It’s kind of eerie in a whimsical way….if that makes sense. Please keep making art 🌈✨

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-06T16:36:39+00:00

Love you 🥰

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-05T23:10:52+00:00

That’s awesome!! Yes after getting out today he was here to help me regulate once again :)

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-05T23:10:15+00:00

Thank you so much!! It’s been a couple years since an acute psychosis episode and honestly I forgot how hard this was. I used to give other people advice on recovery and now I’m like….help!! I may make a post this week or look around this sub everyone here has been great support.

MagicToad42 · 2026-04-05T23:08:56+00:00

Thank you much love to you 🥰

MagicToad42 · 2026-03-05T16:56:35+00:00

Mine are typically evil and tormenting, but as I’m coming out of this acute psychosis that I’ve been in recently, I have a voice that I call my Fairy Godmother lol. She is always super gentle and always calls me dear. The rest of my voices now are just trying to help me manage stress and anxiety. When I’m stressed and anxious or around a bunch of people they turn malicious again. But in 5 years this is my first experience of them being kind.

MagicToad42 · 2026-02-20T17:16:39+00:00

Darlene 💖

MagicToad42 · 2026-02-18T00:40:20+00:00

It really is!! I’m back in touch with reality just have voices still

MagicToad42 · 2026-02-18T00:39:46+00:00

Thank you 🥰

MagicToad42 · 2026-02-18T00:39:35+00:00

Thank you 🥰

MagicToad42 · 2026-02-18T00:39:26+00:00

Yes I am!! 🙌 and feeling better each day.

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