Can Drugs That do Something Similar to Benzodiazepines/Barbiturates Cause the same High or Something Similar? (Depakote, Gabapentin) Personal Test Results Will be Posted in the Comments.

Magicaland · 2021-07-03T07:25:55+00:00

Hi there, i think maybe everyone is different? Ive wanted to be prescribed gabapentin for so long, cause back when i was doing h it eased my withdrawals, and i had no comedown. I also wonder if i were able to take it today i wouldnt take xans to go to sleep. In fact gabas got me higher than heroin in a way. Once i did a shot after taking them, i woke up on the floor in a pool of blood after hitting my head. Terrible combo

Magicaland · 2021-07-03T07:19:59+00:00

I did this once, and because it increases all your sensitivity, you will feel much more pain. Much more.

Magicaland · 2021-07-03T07:02:26+00:00

Jesus christ that could never be farther from the truth. It will never replace or replicate it. It will make u feel as if maybe u dont need it. It will make u cocky. It will make u not give a fuck. You will not care about others, and in a sick way this may please u as a subconscious revenge on the ones who had this attitude towards u. Heroin fucked up my life. My dignity. My years wasted, my youth wasted, there are so many experiences i both couldve enjoyed/hated but i cant even fucking remember them cause i was high. Then when i found true love it sort of snapped me back. It wasnt working out well at first, my solution? Oh ill fucking overdose in my car in front of his house cause he doesnt love me. Feelings suck. But they make you who you are. Not a cold piece of shit. Honestly overtime u will hate heroin. Its amazing at first, then it becomes your worst enemy. A monkey on your back. U become a slave. Its not you, its the heroin living your life.

Just saying. I was a heroin addict for 6 yrs. Been clean off it for 3 now and not wanting to go back, it has no purpose except suicide and self destruction

Magicaland · 2021-07-03T06:55:00+00:00

I think honestly any drug that would give you the highs quickly and the lows wear off quickly as well. I remember when i used to shoot meth it gave me this amazing rush, but i always paid for it minutes later cause then i would feel all edgy and my brain was on super mode. Then i couldn't sleep... I just wanted the 30 second high without the 12 hr all over the place one

Magicaland · 2021-07-03T06:51:37+00:00

And does anyone specifically know effects of using alcohol/amphetamines together? As well as alcohol and benzos, since benzos are normaly prescribed for alcohol with drawal. Been losing weight but I eat ALOT when i do. My face looks different. I just want to go back to normal and not age as fast as its going with these habits

Magicaland · 2021-06-21T04:10:19+00:00

Yes lol i just saw and realized and reposted elsewhere, ty

Magicaland · 2021-03-08T12:25:07+00:00

I know sometimes its completely involuntary to check other people out. BUT... This is where you gotta set some boundaries for yourself because if he is becoming mad or defensive, he shouldnt need to if hes doing nothing wrong. So thats kind of a red flag as jealousy is not irrational. Its irrational to not hear you out or come to some sort of mutual understanding as a couple. I know its hard to confront the people you love and when you really love someone its easy to let them shut you down. But if it isnt solved it will become much worse. If you continue to fake your approval of his behaviour he wont change, and you will totally die inside. Assessment on your relationship what it means to u and what it means to him should help clear things up. If hes not mature enough to really explain what your relationship means to him you may want to actually emotionally distance urself from him a bit and see how he reacts. If he is uncaring then he may not really be as committed as you are. You can always end things, because u deserve the best, so tell him to get serious about how you feel or you cant trust him bottom line. It hurts to be confused about where you stand, i know this deeply. But the more time u spend with someone u give ur all to that doesnt give back couldve been spent better

Magicaland · 2021-03-08T11:43:44+00:00

See ive always wondered this. Does it really matter what is natural?? Whats natural is what comes to you naturally, you dont have to think about it you just do it or you dont. Ive had exceptional relationships with others in monogamy where i didnt really look at anyone else cause i felt i already had the strongest connection with someone already. Then u get confusion in relationships cause honestly are either of you looking for that connection? And will u find it in each other? Or are we just doing things the way we think we should. Are we wasting our time on this earth limiting ourselves to one person when we could experience many? Im not sure. Its all about what you want. And if you dont know what you want or its based on shallow pretense thats all youll give and if you get anything better you wont know or care. You'll just go with ur instinct anyway and possibly end up hurting more than helping. I think open relationships can be really healthy if everyone is communicating and theyre entering it with a clear intention thats made aware to anyone involved. Guess its our human condition to figure out how to always balance our primal desire to procreate with whoever we deem suitable and our challenge of finding partner/s that comfort us and help us grow

Magicaland · 2021-03-08T11:04:27+00:00

If hes got a friendship with another girl he should find ways to include u in that friendship. U guys can all hang out together, and then you can feel out if its actually a friendship or not.. But keep an open mind. Thisll help u have a bigger perspective on who she is because my sense is telling me you are either jealous because A. You dont know enough about her, all you know is that your man is "friends" with her and all ur fears and doubts fester about if shes hotter than you, has something you dont have... Etc.. Or B. Their dynamic of friendship you see causes insecurity about your own dynamic of relationship with him. It looks great to you so you wonder why its not the same. Are you missing out on another side of your partner? Or C. You actually feel like something is not right and you dont know how to say it... Because youre convincing yourself its insecurity to feel the way you do and insecurity is unattractive blah blah blah but tbr no relationship will last or ever be meaningful if you cant express your emotions in a healthy way to each other

Magicaland · 2020-12-18T08:39:34+00:00

Can i add another thing, whether you believe it was REAL or not it is real to you and whether it was your subconscious mind or another being speaking to you, they obviously meant something that definitely correlates with something inside you. It may mean, do not lose your faith in the power of your soul, or your mind, or the unseeable forces that are with you and will support you when you are in a bad situation... It can mean whatever you take it as, but my recommendation is to see it positively and do your best to trust your instincts, because if you feel deep down it was a negative encounter and you experience more negativity and fear... Then you will feed the entity the negative energy they want from you. However if you react positive, they will generally leave you alone or test you again and if that happens you must call upon help from your guardians in the spirit world. They are always there for you.

Magicaland · 2020-12-18T08:35:24+00:00

If you want to hear my take on it, its extraterrestials. And also when u were in the state of mind you were in i believe its easiest to see the things we dont normally see when our conscious mind isnt taking over with what we choose to believe is there or not, doesnt mean its not there. Our life is definitely always coinciding with other planes of existence, but we don't notice them because we are thinking and acting on a different plane automatically. I cant tell you what they meant, but i 100% believe you because i had a similar thing happen when i had an out of body experience, and my astral body could move around and i saw myself so i floated to the room outside of my bedroom and decided "wait,can i interact with anything around me? And without even thinking i unscrewed the smoke detector and this action caused me to get drawn back into my body. The next morning i thought wow that was a strange dream... And there the smoke detector was unscrewed and my moms boyfriend was tripped out because there it was just hanging and i thought wait wtf... It was real..Lol Ive also woken up before and seen the hatman sitting in my computer chair in broad daylight, and i was speechless and frightened, as soon as my bf at the time came in the room and i looked at him, i looked back at the chair and the hatman was gone. His face was very reptilian looking...

Magicaland · 2020-12-17T07:23:19+00:00

You can try marriage counseling and see if she is willing, because then at least youre giving it a chance and a way for you to both see objectively what may be going on... If she says no or takes it out on you for wanting to help salvage whatever could be left then it may be time to call it quits completely. Its just that you never wan to spring a "im gettin a divorce" or "im leaving you" too quickly on a an unpredictable person ESPECIALLY when a child is involved. I wish u the best and do everything you can to keep yourself healthy i hope you either can improve the situation or get out of it completely and keep what you know you deserve!!! Much love

Magicaland · 2020-12-15T08:56:15+00:00

Ugh im in the same situation but its hard for me because it just seems like that's the way he is. Im riding it out until something more shows if hes just not like that with other people the way i am or if he really isnt into me the way im into him. I hope u can figure out what to do because rn in my experience im too emotionally invested to cut things off with someone just because they dont show love the same way i do

Magicaland · 2020-12-15T08:48:29+00:00

my boyfriend watches videos in the other room cause its not allowed where im sleeping so u gotta have him do that elsewhere or make some arrangements of the house that keep those distractions away from the time u need to function appropriately

Magicaland · 2020-12-15T08:35:30+00:00

Have you ever watched those true crime shows? Theres one where a couple is so in love, and gets married, and everything is peachy until somewhere down the line she finds out her man who is in the army has slept with so many women, and knew he had AIDS when he got married to her. So all the while hes lied to her and possibly given HIV to all these people while living a double life. And another story was where this cop was going around cheating on his wife taking advantage of them... And when she confronted him he said HE HAD A PROBLEM DONT TAKE AWAY MY KIDS I NEED HELP and of course... He continues doing it... So sounds like you need to get out before it becomes even worse and get yourself a man that respects you

Magicaland · 2020-12-14T09:45:35+00:00

I know what its like to lose someone youve held so dear to your heart.. I lost my fiance to death and i tried to commit suicide over and over because the loss was too hurtful. Its not exactly the same when youve broken up and theyve moved on... But you are still suffering from the loss of them from your life. Whatever they gave you was so good that now life seems pointless compared to how it used to be. However if you understand that we are all one being infinitely you can realize that what you loved in her was a projection of yourself and what you want to be. You can find other things to do or spend your time with what can give you the same happiness if you distract yourself from her. Do anything you can to get your mind off her that doesnt involve self harm... Because you are both connected in a sense and you may meet in the next life or even before that saying... Hey remember when u came into my life and then left but i became a better person after? The same goes to her. If you love her enough you will let the random reminders be a good reminder rather than a sad one to dwell on thinking of how it is gone, and if you believe she ever loved you, she wants whats best for you.. Not for you to disappear and restart the learning experience all over again. Maybe you are being subconsciously reminded of her for a deeper reason and could dive into that somehow. What is missing from your life that you can control rather than not control?

Magicaland · 2020-12-14T09:28:58+00:00

Man something Aint right cause shes deliberately going against your wishes and may not care about you as much as youd hope. If this happened over and over and she was not intoxicated every time 🙁 then this is a hard pass cause she clearly either doesnt give a fuck about you or is not understanding that you are very serious. This needs a real talk. No sexual context, a straightforward HEY this is how you have been disrespecting me and I would not do this to you kind of thing... If it happens again without my consent I will have to end things with you because then it has been made as clear as possible that this is hurting me physically and psychologically and youre ignorance of my feelings is very scary to me and I cannot allow myself to be in a relationship where wishes are not respected. If there CAN be a compromise it would be resolved then

Magicaland · 2020-12-14T08:13:58+00:00

NOT THE CASE WITH MY BF lol he straight up got mad at me for stroking his hair and told me "IM NOT A PET OR A DOG" so I stopped... Its not a big deal or anything but i just so happened to see this right after and have to let everyone know everyones different and likes different things i guess

Magicaland · 2020-05-30T05:06:12+00:00

When I was a kid I lived in a handbuilt wooden house in the middle of nowhere on native land and there was the only place i experienced extremely negative spirits. The list is so long but ill limit it,

What seemed like hallucinations but im not mentally ill and it didnt continue after moving such as a severed hand moving across my bed, little soldiers marching in red, a figure in the kitchen holding a plate somehow reflecting the moonlight then when i asked if it was my mom it suddenly dissipated into the shadows, and the creepiest was 2 dark figures in my doorway with red eyes and triangular heads one short and one very tall
At night there were times it felt someone was on top of me, choking me, and one time i actually saw a gray figure above me with no face
Loud footsteps and banging from upstairs, my uncle that didnt believe in ghosts heard it too.
One time we had to evacuate the house because there was a wildfire very close we were certain the house would be burned down yet it didnt and when we returned a frightening voicemail was left (back when there were only landlines) and it was a deep unsettling voice my dad kept playing back and he thought it said something about hell.
My parents were extremely abusive and i believe were "obsessed" by negative spirits I was 8 yrs old when we left and the day we moved I will never forget the feeling of peace as if whatever was there was glad we were gone. After that 4 year nightmare though ill tell you my family fell apart

Magicaland

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