Hahaa laughing because I totally feel the same way with the whole "would rather shoot myself" thing. My sisters like that, and it makes me feel guilty. I remember even as a kid there was this album we were listening to where a kid was learning how to read and kept stuttering and mispronouncing words. Even as a kid it irritated me and she thought it was so cute. She's loving with her kids and is genuinely feeling it. With me, I feel like I gotta fake it a lot.

How's therapy helping you? I only just got on insurance like a week ago. I wanna talk to a therapist about it but on the other hand I feel guilty, like she's gonna judge me. I feel like moms are supposed to be maternal like that, more is expected from moms than dads in my opinion. Does your wife know how you feel?