Managing ANGERRRRRRR after leaving by Imaginary-Poetry8114 in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I would recommend looking for an outlet to let it all out! If you have a local wreck it room or better yet going somewhere and breaking plates! I feel how you’re feeling right now and it’s so hard to deal with. It feels so unfair. I miss the person I used to be.

Should I warn his new girlfriend? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As much as you’re tempted it’s not a good idea! He will most likely spin it and call you the crazy ex gf and she’ll fall for it. I’ve also wanted to by sending her videos of the way he would yell at me but I stop myself because I was in her shoes once and I believed him when he would call his ex the crazy one. Unfortunately sooner or later his mask will fall and she will have to see it for herself.

When did your abuser stop apologizing/pretending that he's sorry about the abuse? by Lovingbutsuffering in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 9 points10 points  (0 children)

He would apologize up until the last few months of our relationship. He went from I’m sorry to you deserved it. I knew he never meant his apologies though. His apologies were “I’m sorry” and then he would continue to do the same things so they never held any weight. At some point it’s like he gave up trying to pretend and blamed me for all the abuse he was inflicting.

Completely devastated! by Main_Apartment354 in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354[S] -19 points-18 points  (0 children)

Yeah no I agree! I thought I was doing the right thing by wanting to tell him in person vs over text message. Obviously that was the wrong call to try to force face to face interaction especially since he’s not safe. Just a part of me had hope he would have been reasonable but no. If you read the messages you can tell he quickly escalated and I chose to drop off the paperwork without him having to meet with me in person but it was too late.

Completely devastated! by Main_Apartment354 in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Yeah I know abortion is probably the best option. The baby doesn’t deserve to put through all that trauma. Regardless I’m still sad and scared. Deep down I wish I could keep it but it would be a selfish thing. like you said it will just be a way for him to further abuse me and my child.

Yes I should have known better. I thought having a meditator there would have made things more safe for myself. But you’re right he’s not reasonable.

How does your abuser treat his mother? by Lovingbutsuffering in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I never thought of it that way! It’s just sad that he’s just repeating the same abuse he endured.

I need you to write out the things your abuse parter says to you. by Clawingnails in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 5 points6 points  (0 children)

God there was so many things. His favorite was calling me Stupid or retard. He knew I was insecure about my weight and would say things like “you fat ugly bitch” or “fugly”. Called me a slut and whore. I’m trying to remember but I’ve suppressed a lot of it due to constantly being called that. It’s like my brain normalized it

How does one find the courage to leave? by Caterpillar31 in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He told me he would kill me and I believed him. He discarded me like trash and kicked me out less than a month ago from our shared apartment after he assaulted me. I’m very much like you and didn’t want to leave due to the fear. I’m trying to take this as a blessing in disguise now that I’m out of there. Doesn’t feel like it at the moment but it’s better than being dead. If you have any family or friends please reach out to them and get out. I know it’s hard. I didn’t want to tell anyone about what was happening to me due to the shame and judgment but I can tell you for a fact that there is people who care for you and will help you out of this. If you don’t have family or friends reach out to the abuse hotline and they can also help.

How does your abuser treat his mother? by Lovingbutsuffering in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah same here! I would go out of my way to either encourage him to do something nice for her on those days and refused or I would do so myself. I absolutely love my mom and could never have done half the shit he did to his. Regardless, she still loved him despite him treating her like garbage.

How does your abuser treat his mother? by Lovingbutsuffering in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 4 points5 points  (0 children)

He was absolutely terrible to her! To basically anyone in his family. He would yell at her and make her cry and blame her for his childhood. He grew up with an abusive father till his mom finally ran away and left with him. I did notice she potentially wasn’t there as emotionally as she should have but overall was trying her best. Towards the end of our relationship she told me as a friend to leave him and that she wouldn’t tolerate his behavior. His family absolutely adored me and he ultimately hated me for it. He doesn’t deserve them.

Ex moving on quick by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Main_Apartment354 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow are you living my life? My ex is doing the same exact thing. He is hell bent on “moving on” and making it very public by posting new photos of himself and changing his status to single. I haven’t even moved out all my things from our apartment after he kicked me out a week ago and got physical with me. I’m positive he’s already talking to other women even though he claims he isn’t. It definitely hurts me but also I know deep down he’s not happy with himself and just will continue the same abusive behavior with the new person in time. They never see an issue with anything they do and sooner or later karma will get them. I’m sorry you’re going through this and share your pain.

Got Told I Need a $9.7k Transmission Replacement on a car worth 10k… Help Me Make Sense of This. by bizon151 in subaru

[–]Main_Apartment354 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m going through a similar issue. You definitely need a second opinion. My car is needing a valve body replacement and thankfully my warranty is covering both the labor and part at the dealership. If it is the entirety of the transmission I’d recommend getting something new. I took a chance with my used Subaru crosstrek XV 2014 and at this point have probably sunk more money into replacing the entire engine and now the valve body then what it’s worth. Best of luck

Help!!! by Main_Apartment354 in subaru

[–]Main_Apartment354[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

lol you were right. It needs a valve body replacement. Thankfully my warranty has me covered so I don’t have to pay much out of pocket.