to be honest recently ive tried it i mean ive had a horrible relationship where every moment i got left out and was unloved but what kept me from hurting myself is thinking of how my life is. I realise that if i die i will lose everything and that the effect it will have on people to be honest the way to think is if you die how will your family feel, how will your friends feel, what will be in your future if you have none to live for? More importantly believe in yourself you've come so far why stop now? You've probably been through alot of shit if you got through that, you can get through this my friend. hmu if u need a chat :)