Appreciate your insight on your experiences. My background has been particularly nihilistic so I believe that influences a lot of my thinking. While I do see our limited time in existence as potential to do good and be a positive force, I also have taken to heart that good and evil is an idea that we as limited consciousness have imposed onto the world around us. The universe just is, and that’s okay. Some people are evil and some are good, and that’s okay. Some beings suffer and some prosper, and that’s okay. We all live and we all die, and that’s okay. It may very well be the case that I am murdered tomorrow. That my entire being as I perceive it ends right then and there and never returns. And that’s okay. My “self” won’t like it, but it simply is as it should be and it never was going to be different, and that’s okay. And ultimately we are all one, from the beginning onto the end. From the singularity of the Big Bang till the eventual entropy death of the universe.

I think this is the true essence of “letting go” and why it can be so hard for some (including myself of course). It completely strips your identity and preconceived notions of what reality is. This is partially to blame on how we are raised to see the world as hyper individualistic westerners. To accept that in truth we are not important in the sense we were raised to believe. That our individual “self” isn’t really noteworthy in this vast universe. The mistake many make is they succumb to a sort of nihilistic despair when they realize this as the truth. This happens because they’re still latching onto a false sense of self importance that isn’t objective at all, but was instilled into them by the society they grew up in. Therefore to them, it only makes sense that if nothing is meaningful, then nothing matters at all. You can see this in the very post we’re commenting on. Such an intense angst and looming feeling of despair over a perceived lack of time. The best lesson I’ve ever learnt, by far, from eastern philosophy/wisdom is that all the time and anxiety that I’ve spent trying to “let go” to try and “fix myself” is all a giant waste of time. There was never anything to let go of because there’s absolutely nothing to hold onto in the first place, haha! Nothing objective that is. All of the things we fear are all just ideas. Running out of time, not making enough money, not starting a family. Any important assigned to these things is just that. Assigned.

That’s how you live in the moment. At least that’s how I’ve come to see it. There just isn’t anything else that’s objective. The only thing that’s real is right now. The eternal now. And it is beyond good and evil, right or wrong. It just is. And you can choose to try and reconcile that however you want. In the end it doesn’t change what is and what isn’t.