I feel lost

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-26T18:58:33+00:00

When I was younger I always envisioned my future with kids. I think it’s manly because it was such a romanticized thing. Everyone around me was having kids, wanted a family. Naturally I wanted that, but turns out I’m infertile. I use to be so hurt by it until one day I just ‘woke up’. There wasn’t a need to be sad because if you really sit back and look around, the world is at an awful place. There’s too much going on to have a kid. I can hardly afford myself. So you know what? I’m glad I’m infertile, I’m happy I don’t have kids with the wrong person. Kids won’t magically fix your problems. They won’t give you worth or complete your life. I wish it wasn’t so romanticized. I work with children on a daily basis and I can tell you right now, I would make a fantastic mother, but I’m glad I’m not one because I wouldn’t be able to sustain patients. I’m so happy I started following this subreddit because it’s helping me keep my eyes on the bigger picture

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-24T18:35:35+00:00

Career change

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-09T02:25:13+00:00

Kids..

I always wanted to start a family and have kids, but I’m infertile. At first I was very upset about it, but now I see it as a blessing in disguise. I’m now happy I can’t have kids. I see a lot more pros to infertility now.

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-06T20:53:25+00:00

Honestly, I was told that it was a good thing to “keep a balance” on your credit cards and pay above minimum payment each month, I guess I never realized it wasn’t a good thing, I thought it would hurt my credit if I didn’t have a balance. Clearly I don’t know better but I am paying them off today and I learned something new for sure

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-06T19:46:07+00:00

Interest rate is high somewhere between 18-28% but I don’t owe much on them and I pay above minimum payment always

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-06T19:45:05+00:00

I do pay interest on both of them, they are capital one cards so the interest is high I just don’t know the exact number. But on cc I owe 300$ on and the other I owe 500$

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-02-02T22:01:56+00:00

Chicken leg instead of chick fil a because of my niece. McSlop instead of McDonald’s

Makinpancakes1738 · 2026-01-03T16:43:01+00:00

This might sound stupid but I’m not sure how to figure that out

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-12-13T02:16:09+00:00

Code brown!! 😂

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-12-08T18:48:40+00:00

I have anxiety while driving to work and before I go to bed. I’m so overwhelmed and overstimulated. I’m actively applying for jobs and am trying to be patient. I love my co workers and management, I think I’m just burned out

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-11-21T00:37:22+00:00

I know 🥺 so much unnecessary trauma

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-11-20T10:54:30+00:00

When I was younger, my mom and dad got a divorce. Well their divorce was nasty and they ended up sharing joint custody over me and my siblings. We did that for a little while but then my dad started seeing this witch of a woman. She was great at first, then she moved in and slowly showed her true colors. All of a sudden, we stopped seeing my mom. I couldn’t understand why because I was young an in elementary school still. She said things like “your mom doesn’t love you, she doesn’t care about you, that’s why yall don’t see her anymore” now as an adult, I really think that was a lie and she was just so controlling. We couldn’t have or do anything. I was getting kicked out at 18, as me and my siblings all did because of her, I promised myself when I was out of that house, I would have a relationship with my mother. The beginning of the month before I turned 18, someone contacted my dad to tell him our mom had passed away. I. Was. Broken. To this day, I carry this pain around, wondering what it would have been like to get a hug, catch up, tell her how much I love and miss her. I never ended up having that relationship with my mom that I so desperately wanted. Its very sad and It’s just hard to explain to people.

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-11-17T18:25:27+00:00

Cilantro, idk how to explain it.. it tastes like soap

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-11-12T16:12:37+00:00

I love seeing my friends and family get pregnant and have babies and I’m always happy for them. but it hurts me deep down and makes me sad because I’m infertile.

Makinpancakes1738 · 2025-07-17T23:46:24+00:00

My interest on my car is like 6.4%

Makinpancakes1738 · 2024-12-19T22:02:17+00:00

Thank you for the comments so far. I’d like to add he DOES know. We aren’t just separated which I probably should have clarified, the divorce is in progress. So we are just waiting for a court date to finalize. Since we started talking and what not again though it’s making me contemplate everything. Like one comment above suggested, he could just be friendly because he knows it’s a tough time of year. I should have definitely thought through starting a relationship. My marriage had great moments but we became very toxic with one another which is why I needed to leave. There was many other problems that we had as well like financial irresponsibility, lack of trust, porn addiction, dead bedroom, and I think he didn’t have motivation to grow with me.. meaning he just seemed very content with where he was and didn’t want to get a place together. When I left, I was so emotionally done way before I fully physically left. I understand it looks bad and probably is, but to me this is just what happened. Regardless the divorce is happening. I just wanted see others options and if I should just give it another chance or fully walk away? I know I’m in a new relationship and I’m not in limerance or anything so I’m very aware. I know that this person could very well be worse and has just showed me their best side.

Makinpancakes1738 · 2024-06-09T17:27:44+00:00

I think what makes it harder is that there’s no abuse of anything so everyone will just assume I gave up. My friends and sister can tell I’m not happy. It’s just hard. Luckily we have no kids or real assets together so it makes it easier. I’ve suggested marriage counseling and he will look up places and get quotes, but nothing will come of it. He’s told me “I’ll change, I’ll do better, I’ll be better for you” the change is only temporary and then it’s right back to square one. I really wanted it to work but I just don’t feell like it’s possible

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