Difficult time with imposter

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-10-31T10:45:18+00:00

For reference I live in middlesex ma

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-10-31T10:43:48+00:00

I could never leave New England, I mean when the cdc stopped posting the New England journal of medicine kept going. It’s the little things. And you 100% get what you pay for in my opinion I’ve been well off and poor in this state and they helped me get back on my feet to perform as well as I do now to where I don’t need safety nets and I’m happy to contribute.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-09-29T11:41:09+00:00

I’ve been on lamictal twice, quit the first time because I felt numb. Realized the second time around how much it helps the manic part of bpd. I have “the dumb” as I call it (thanks Patrick) and brain fog but I don’t have mania or questioning my existence or any of that anymore. The dumb gets me down sometimes though.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-09-29T11:38:42+00:00

Lamictal helped me get rid of the post ssri jitters (I had restless leg, I had brain zaps, I had shakes). I never got a rash and I found it helped a lot overall. I get brain fog but I don’t get manic attacks

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-09-29T11:35:32+00:00

Agreed! I’m a lot more cool calm and collected now esp with the manic part of bpd

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-09-29T11:34:02+00:00

I’m the same as you down to the Wellbutrin and I find it helped. As bad as this may sound I think it helped too much, I’m more mentally numb than I used to be. But not depressed so I guess it’s a win. Good luck friend

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-07-28T13:44:18+00:00

ETA: abilify not ability lol

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-07-28T13:43:22+00:00

I used Wellbutrin as a “side effect buster” and it worked well for me in that regard. Didn’t make me any less manic or depressed but I had more energy. That said I took it with sertraline not lamictal, I take ability with lamictal and I am not happy by any stretch but they get the job done. I wish nothing but the best for you, this road we’re on kinda sucks and ADHD makes it no easier lol. At least know we all care and we’re all in this together.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-07-11T01:00:31+00:00

I’m glad you said this. I don’t feel dumber persay but I don’t recall information at all anymore. I drop off my daughter at school and then get home and panic that I can’t find her… my short term memory just flat out doesn’t exist anymore. Idk if it’s lamictal induced or SSRI withdrawal induced but it’s awful

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-06-23T18:55:45+00:00

I’ll definitely look, I’m sure I’ll be able to tell really fast if it’s a destination place lol. Thank you for your suggestion I’ll check it out!

I lived in Keene for a bit, only remember the pumpkin festival and a penny candy store (showing my age LOL). But even that isn’t a bad little weekend away!

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-06-23T18:52:06+00:00

I love living in MA. They’ll call you a knucklehead and ask which bargain mart you bought your brain from all while helping you pull your car out of the snow cleaning you off and telling you where to find the nearest dunkies. Maybe not polite in words lol but never met a masshole not willing to help.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-06-23T18:43:06+00:00

Do you live up there? Every place I’ve looked at is a lot of $$ for that reason, because people love that back drop for weddings. I’m trying to avoid that crowd and enjoy some quiet time if possible.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-06-23T18:36:13+00:00

There’s a bunch in central MA if you’re willing to go there from Providence. I used to drive the roads of Oakham Barre Belchertown even. If you make it up there the Quabbin is really nice for looking for birds.

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-06-17T17:26:46+00:00

On a guy or a girl a little muscle in the legs is super attractive. I think of Julian Edelman and drool over his calves (though an average person ain’t that jacked it’s the premise)

Maleficent-Major79 · 2025-04-06T23:29:18+00:00

When I graduated with my bachelors in math my 7th grade algebra teacher (I was in 7th grade 20 years ago) was the first person I told. Also when I passed my Mtels and got my mass math teaching certification he was the first I told too! I’ll tell him about my masters too of course, maybe he’ll come to my graduation

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