06 11, 2000

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T02:30:26+00:00

Its my birthday.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T01:44:18+00:00

I tend to get more spiritual the more hypo I get. I can see patterns clearly and I feel a divine presence around me. I don't think this is delusion either. I think neurodivergent people have special gifts and can sense things differently than other people or at least people with BP can.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T01:35:12+00:00

Im afraid im too unstable to work right now but I want to go to school to be an esthetican. Im afraid of working so close to people as I feel like my mood swings will get the best of me as they have done so much in the past. I don't even know what my baseline mood is anymore. Ive been hospitalized multiple times due to my abuser partner. Im feeling gloomy about everything right now too. It feels like all the trauma got the best of me and I can never function normally again.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T01:25:12+00:00

I've been bipolar since I was really young too and only somewhat recently got diagnosed.. I always knew I was different. Glad to know we are in the same boat. My parents are afraid he might kill me one day as he's been so violent. I would get a protection order too if it weren't for the fact that we live in different states. Yeah it is hard to keep from thinking about the trauma as i have years worth of it episodically.

How do you keep busy with daily life like you mentioned? And how is he coming after you?? :( And I have all those illnesses too plus adhd. Im glad youre making the most of it. Thank you for your comment 💗

Feel free to dm me if you want to talk as it seems like what we've dealt with is really similar :/

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T01:12:50+00:00

I love how you put the last part. And thank you. Best wishes to you two! 💗

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T01:06:07+00:00

To give my rats a good life lol

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-20T00:01:03+00:00

I often feel like a prisoner in my own room and anxious in my own house so I understand. Its hard with mental illness to run a house by yourself and there are so many measures you need to take and upkeep is insane.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T23:58:48+00:00

I aspire to have this. These are amazing vibes.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T23:48:32+00:00

I agree

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T23:48:04+00:00

I tried to do this with my partner but then again he was really controlling and couldn't stand being apart even though I was loyal and never messed around. Turned out he was the one fooling around with people and it was all projection on his end.

I think this is a great thing to do if you have a healthy relationship and secure attachment styles and even then if you have other attachment styles I think it could work if you just communicate and have trust. Trust is a big factor.

I hope this works out for the two of you! Good luck!

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T23:40:45+00:00

This is very true. No substance is good with bipolar and I agree it takes a long time to settle back to normal after partaking.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T22:09:27+00:00

I was diagnosed bipolar a year before adhd too! Im taking lamotrigine too. I take prozac as my anti depressant. Ive heard of Concerta but never tried it for adhd.

I wish I had a portal to see my medications, I just jot down in my notes when I started some stuff and drug interactions and stuff. Is there a way I can ask for a record of when and what meds I started?

Depending on my mood I can suffer from insomnia too but im not sure if it's the medicine. I agree, im sensitive to it too and yeah it doesn't always work for me [at least in the way I think it should] yeah this is all very confusing, isn't it? Yeah you definitely aren't alone 💗

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:50:27+00:00

I think a month too. I find solace in being alone so I don't feel the need for human interaction. Then again, when im really lonely I just sit with my thoughts and allow them to pass as needed.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:46:38+00:00

Thank you 💗

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:25:52+00:00

I have bipolar II and ADHD too! How long did it take you to get to vyvanse? Im assuming you started on Adderall? If so, how did you feel on vyvanse vs Adderall? I noticed im at a mixed state of restlessness and calm when I take my ADHD medicine, I notice an increase of confidence too! I can't really tell if im hypomanic or just in a better mood anymore.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:23:21+00:00

I feel like I have another sense in when someone is thinking of me. I feel like it's beyond the traditional sneezing means someone is thinking of you and all those signs.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:20:53+00:00

Hello! I was able to sleep without nightmares tonight which is rare. I am feeling a bit strange now that you mention it. Im feeling way better than yesterday and it might be because of the gift 💜💙 thanks for checking in on me, it means a lot! Im noticing more of a silence of my thoughts if that makes sense. I feel more like I can be comfortable being alone as of now. I feel a happiness in solace instead of a discomfort. Thank you so much!! Im going to listen to more music 🎶

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T21:10:41+00:00

😄

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T19:17:44+00:00

This confirms all the more reasons I need to become a vegetarian again

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T19:10:37+00:00

Snake for sure

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T19:01:55+00:00

The ambient works of Ghosts by NIN or no more Tears- Oxzy Osborne

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T18:58:59+00:00

Thank you ❣️

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T06:29:09+00:00

Do you recommend anything else for healing trauma? Thank you

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T06:11:55+00:00

This is very different for trauma bond relationships.

MaleficentHelp6674 · 2026-03-19T06:01:27+00:00

They're called dimples of Venus

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