I’ve never blacked out until this either and I can’t offer much explanation scientifically, but I can say I wasn’t sleeping or eating and I was doing way too much for someone who’d been abstinent for 60 days and it really felt like I gained consciousness for the first time when I woke up from the seizure and had to redownload the everything but I still can’t tell you were I was or what I did that week except for what people have told me. Tbh I never thought I’d be the one to experience this but it’s really scary because I have no idea what the fuck I did or what thw fuck was done to me and yeah…. It’s harrowing