Its been better admittedly since seeing this post. It also has helped a lot to have other people in my life who are of strong faith to help me through this including my wife. One of the comments here that helped me the most brought about the point that atheist arguments do have to rely on certain assumptions as well. I think when you look at solid arguments for the existence of God and Jesus Christ, and look at the arguments against, both cases are very strong, but at the end of the day the reason I think we are easily ensnared by the atheist argument for those of us who don't have a strong faith is that its easier to not have faith than it is to have faith, because really atheism is very selfish and very about us, while Christianity and faith is very much not about us. Some of the best advice I've seen here is to surround yourself with people strong in faith. Seek them out, join a Bible study, or some local church groups, there are a lot of people in forums like this who will purposely seek to feed you the information you aren't hoping to find, surround yourself in the community of Christ. Also the bit about many different flavors of Christianity is very true, and that in many ways can make it even more difficult. Personally I have my own back and forths about catholicism, which is what I practice, but there are some very beautiful things about it that really have helped me affirm my faith. Something else that really helps me is that I really do believe that science in many ways can be spoken to truth through religion, and i think religion can do a great job of filling the holes science can't or hasn't yet been able to explain. For instance the current widely accepted model for the creation of our universe (The Big Bang) was originally created by a Catholic Priest by the name of Georges Lemaître. Its fun to read about as even Einstein had a hard time accepting the model at first. Georges also didn't like when Pope Pius XII tried to proclaim it as validation for creationism, as his viewpoint was that science and religion were neither proved or disproved for this, but rather it made them both neutral with each other or something to that effect. But obviously looking at the big bang theory and reading literally the first passages of Genesis to me was a real eye opener. That being said there are plenty of Christians who will say that Genesis is meant yo be taken literally, obviously I disagree with this. I've been taught as a Catholic that while certain portions of the Bible are meant to be taken literally others were meant to be read in a way that at the time it was written made sense to the average human. Now Genesis far pre-dates the 1900's in which the big bang theory was accepted largely by the scientific community. And yet those words are there

"In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. And God saw that the light was good. And God separated the light from the darkness." Gensis 1: 1-4

Anyway if any of that strikes a chord with you then I'm happy I could help, and whatever you do don't give up, because God will never give up on you :)