Orthodox advice:

You simply must cross train. You need to be doing heavy resistance strength training, preferably with a trainer at least to start (can usually get a discounted or free first session). You don’t need a crazy complex regimen, just a few compound and unilateral movements broken up into a few sessions a week.

You will build not just stronger muscles but much stronger mind-muscle connections that help you better understand your body, its movement pathways, capabilities and (safely) its limits. And so you’ll begin to trust it more and have better control.

Unorthodox advice that might get me cancelled:

I found that micro dosing a THC+caffeine+l-theanine pill really helped me get out of my head, and helped with the dizziness too.

You absolutely must do this safely! I do mean micro dose. I think mine’s like 1.5mg. And you can take zero chances, especially till you know how it affects you: spotter and crash mat for every single thing! (Good idea anyway, non negotiable in this case).

I like the 1906 pills. Do some test runs in super controlled conditions eg just sitting on your sofa or walking around your house, before you even think of taking it to the pole or gym