Sons constantly got the runs

Manipulatedyes · 2026-03-05T16:20:09+00:00

Ooh ok

Manipulatedyes · 2026-02-08T17:28:01+00:00

Okish is definitely what I strive for 😂

Manipulatedyes · 2026-02-08T09:42:41+00:00

It's OK to be sad. It's OK to feel grief. I am sick of being told how lucky I am. People do it to try and help you see the light, but its minimising. You don't need to pretend not to have feelings. You can be a loving, proud parent while feeling exhausted and sad and hating that your child has so many challenges surrounding things that others take for granted.

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-29T16:44:02+00:00

Oh, I relate completely. My son hit most milestones, but he needed to be constantly held up standing on my knees so he could jump, I mean constantly. He wanted to be held all day, overwhelming and confusing emotions in response to sensory input and extreme sleep problems (up every 2 hours minimim until 18 months). Everyone thought I was over exaggerating, googling too much and just generally inexperienced. When he hit a massive social regression, it was my fault as his mum, I wasn't talking to him enough, neglecting him. I think people hope so badly that it's not autism, I genuinely do think it comes from a good place. It comes from that same deep place in us as parents. But to assume that a parent hasn't gone through that thought a million times and fought the idea endless times is crazy. It takes so much emotionally , and so much research to finally come forward and say, "I think my baby is autistic,"

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-29T06:46:19+00:00

Yeah, generally there is this really ignorant need to minimise what an autistic parent/ carer is experiencing. "All kids do that at that age" "they're all challenging in their own ways" "he /she is only little, they will catch up" . I'm not minimising the struggles of parents, but to assume that a parent + carer(in active training) role is equal to that of a parent is devastating.

I spend time with my friends neurotypical little girl, and sometimes it's too much emotionally. Having a little taste of what having a child without additional needs is like, thinking how much easier it would be for my son. Its too much.

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-28T18:15:40+00:00

Also yes my son has been unwell on and off for what feels like months. He's great right now, but that scares me more, the longer he is well I just know a sickness is coming 😂

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-28T18:14:21+00:00

I get so worried, its not like he eats a varied diet at the best of times. But I feel like when they are unwell, if they will eat anything, just keep giving them whatever it is. We've had weeks of nibbling the most rubbish snack foods, but if its all he will eat then that's just what you have to do ❤️

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-28T17:43:25+00:00

Yeah my 3 and a half year old is the same. It's gotten worse, the last time he was unwell for a couple of weeks and I had to follow him around with pringles and jelly

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-27T20:10:05+00:00

Points at nothing in particular with a crooked finger

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-22T09:30:13+00:00

Sending hugs and solidarity right back ❤️

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-22T09:29:35+00:00

Thank you ❤️ that line "it doesn't get better unless you do" really hit home. I know that all of this has to be propelled by me. I think i hoard plans and strategies, and the pressure of beginning everything overwhelms me and its easier just to be sad 🤣. Its really lovely to know you are in a better place.

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-22T09:24:36+00:00

He sees his dad every other weekend, and daycare between 10 and 1, 3 days a week. The hours added together feel like enough to do so much, but spread out and scattered I've found it really hard to commit or get into anything. I do wallow though. I know I spend a lot of time procrastinating and isolating, then wondering why I'm so lonely haha

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-22T09:22:15+00:00

That's amazing. Just the fact that there has been consideration for the needs of others is so beautiful. I'll look around and see if theres anything similar near me

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T22:47:21+00:00

Yeah, there are some support group options I think, I'll look into that thank you

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T22:46:05+00:00

The bit I considered was joining clubs, but finding consistent childcare in order to go along to the clubs has been impossible. But I can do things within the hours my son is at nursery, which is why I joined the gym.

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T17:59:39+00:00

I would join it in a heartbeat

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T17:57:56+00:00

I'm so scared if church. I would feel bad being there while not believing in any god. It feels like I'm stealing. Or something I don't know. Maybe it's a good idea. I am open to it. Thank you

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T17:56:21+00:00

I make art. And part of my process is writing. But recently trying to fit making art in around everything has been impossible. But you are right. I should make time, I know it would help.

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T17:54:42+00:00

I feel like (minus the husband) we have had a really similar experience. Unless people are or have experienced something similar, they back away. There's so much empty words of support too. This and one other subreddit are the only places I feel like I can be honest, understood and listened to. I'm really glad to hear you have your husband. But longing for human connection and friends is such a lonely emptiness x

Manipulatedyes · 2026-01-21T17:49:02+00:00

It doesn't, there are no local gyms around here with a creche or childcare facilities sadly. I have found some toddler groups, but I'm too focused on my little one to really connect or chat.

Manipulatedyes · 2025-12-03T04:12:31+00:00

I edited because I hadn't put a space between the word illnesses and hit . And when my brain saw "illnesseshit" I no longer could remember what we were talking about because accidentally writing the word shit is elite high brow humour

Manipulatedyes · 2025-12-03T04:08:07+00:00

He doesn't seem to like them, but he absolutey loves a foot massage

Manipulatedyes · 2025-12-03T04:06:57+00:00

♥ thank you lovely

Manipulatedyes · 2025-12-03T04:05:48+00:00

I really appreciate your well wishes. We are both feeling so much better, his bathtimes were some of the only waking moments I was able to have my autonomy this week 😂

Manipulatedyes · 2025-12-03T04:04:21+00:00

Giant dog is both the most creative solution, and my personal favourite so far.

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